u/Independent_Pen_9865

I accidentally got into a university. Not because I wanted to, or considered myself ready to take on studies. Mostly because their enrollment criteria were so low.

I know this will not last. That I'll fail. Just like I always did

It's a certainty because I can't make myself do homework consistently. And the thing is, I'm enjoying some parts of the course I'm doing. I even made a friend. I cry about being powerless in this situation frequently.

And what next? Last time I was uncertain about my future it took me an entire summer to make 4 job applications total. All of which I was denied.

I think i need to add that I still live with my family, where there's one parent doing 2 jobs to pay for unreasonable rent whilst learning English and studying in a University. And the other one is failing to find employment

There's also another person whose life I poisoned with my choices. Something I really regret. Something I'm not sure I can set right.

By all accounts I'm a burden.