u/Impossible-Border896

Hey it’s me. I was just thinking about how crazy I’ve been for letting you consume my mind and my heart like you do. I know you never loved me. At least not as much… if at all.

I have spent a lot of time crying over you. Why? Why do I even let myself get so ridiculous. You come and go like I mean nothing and I’m always here just waiting. Waiting to hear your excuse and then not even caring because I’m just so happy you gave me some of your time. I hate that I let it continue or want it to continue. I want to be with you so bad that I allow myself to continue to be hurt.

I know our situation is so messed up… what’s the point in even trying anymore. We’re both getting older and what would the outcome be anyway? It all just sucks and I know I need to just let you go. I’ve sent you so many messages that you don’t even see. I don’t think I’m going to try to reach out again. Your actions speak way louder than anything you’ve ever told me.

All I ever asked from you is that you just give me closure if you wanted to end this and you always say no that’s not what you want… what do you want?

I miss you so much. I wish I could turn back time and just stay up with you all night. Maybe there was something I could have done to keep you here.

If I had known Thanksgiving night would be the last time I’d see you I wouldn’t have left! That Friday haunts me every single day. I miss you and I wasn’t ready to lose you.

In a way I wish I never met you but at the same time my life wouldn’t be the same so I’m glad I got what little time I had with you.

I knew you never loved me the way I loved you. I was just your fall back “friend”. All those times you ghosted me and then I’d see you with someone else… heartbreaking… I was always there waiting for you though. Then you met the one you truly loved and I was just there when you got bored.

I miss all of our late night conversations and our time together. Deep down I know all the things you said to me were lies but I don’t even care. I miss you sending me songs. I miss your voice and I miss your smile and those dimples.

It was so nice to run in to you at Walmart right after my mom passed away. It made me feel a little better. I hate you treat me this way though. I haven’t heard from you in months… I guess I’ve just never been good enough for you.

I hope you’re happy though. I truly do. You will always be on my mind and I will always love you even if I shouldn’t.

In a way I wish I never met you but at the same time my life wouldn’t be the same so I’m glad I got what little time I had with you.

I knew you never loved me the way I loved you. I was just your fall back “friend”. All those times you ghosted me and then I’d see you with someone else… heartbreaking… I was always there waiting for you though. Then you met the one you truly loved and I was just there when you got bored.

I miss all of our late night conversations and our time together. Deep down I know all the things you said to me were lies but I don’t even care. I miss you sending me songs. I miss your voice and I miss your smile and those dimples.

It was so nice to run in to you at Walmart right after my mom passed away. It made me feel a little better. I hate you treat me this way though. I haven’t heard from you in months… I guess I’ve just never been good enough for you.

I hope you’re happy though. I truly do. You will always be on my mind and I will always love you even if I shouldn’t.