u/Ill_Baseball_9011

I have been talking to a friend of mine and we were talking about how much we panic. She said she starts panicking easily but me, an introvert, on the other hand doesn't panic at all unless it's something that could embarrass me in public (I have a lot of social anxiety). But in an actual emergency situation I am very calm and can handle the situation well.

idk maybe it's because I game a lot. Are you guys like this or is it just me

I confessed to my crush and she rejected me for valid reasons imo. (The whole story is in my profile if anyone wants context).

I talked to my friend about how I'm feeling after one month, how I still love her a lot. He asked me if I would like to see her once again, obviously I said yeah but questioned if it was possible. Long story short he said he could try arranging a get together of our classmates and I told I'd be forever in his debt. I told him how I have a lot of things to say to her.

Here's what I thought I'd say: "I still love you... a lot. I still need you to keep me anchored to this world. I still want you so that I can bring back my sanity. I still want you to be holding my hand through all my ups and downs. But clearly that's not what you want, and I should respect that. But I don't wanna erase you from my life that easily. I know you probably think I'm bothering you too much and being too much of an emotional sap, but I still want to talk to you... every day. Soon we're going to go our separate ways for our studies... but I would be so so so happy if you wanted to be friends... really good friends. I still love you a lot but if hiding those feelings means that I get to talk to you every day, I will gladly do so."

What do you guys think about this, I don't want her to think I'm forcing her into something.