u/IllChampionship1932

My heart chakra has been feeling heavy, it‘s hurting and I don’t have any medical condition. I do meditate everyday and do chakra cleansing but my heart chakra needs a lot of healing and there’s pain involved from constant betrayal from certain friends, potential partners which has impacted me. Though I have been trying to heal but feels impossible. I have been shutting myself from new connections, feeling like it would lead to disappointment.

I have been chanting the beej mantras and YAM chakra sound. It helps but I feel stuck. And need other solutions on how to heal this.

I would appreciate your guidance/insights on how to go about with this. Thank you.

Recently, figured I'm a FA in romantic relationships/friendship with men whereas I have a secure attachment with my parents and certain friends. I have a become a FA due to constant betrayal from both and men (platonic and potential partners) and women who I have gotten close to over the years which has lead to trust issues. While I do get connected with men on an intellectual level but never connected with them emotionally as I have never felt safe or could trust them. To be very clear, I trust women but not all men and never attach myself to anyone, place or thing. I love my independence and can do amazing by being single, but the idea of letting a guy close to me scares tf out of me. I fear vulnerability and loss of control. Currently working this out in therapy, I have been on CBT therapy and working through building gradual trust with men by taking baby steps towards closeness. And I have realised that my nervous system shuts down into somatic anxiety even when I want to get to know a guy. Recently, I met someone who i got attracted to and it's mutual, though the guy hasn't done anything weird and has been respectful, I have been running away from him and even men in general. I wanna overcome this stagnation but find it so hard to get through my walls, and cognitive distortions, my whole nervous system shuts down and can come across as rude to the other person by ignoring them but I don't mean to. I do want to be in a relationship but also not, due to fear of being taken advantage of. How do you guys navigate through the walls? What helped you heal? has anyone tried hypnotherapy for healing? Any tips on how to break the ice between me and the guy? thank you in advance.