Estranged dad
my parents divorced when i was a small child. After years of a custody battle my narcissistic mom finally manipulated me into cutting my dad off even though he was the nonabusive parent. I eventually realized who my mom was and have gone NC with her on and off in my adult life but now permanently since i recently became a mom. Ive been remembering my dad recently and feel the desire to reconnect even though its been 20 years. He reached out ten years ago but i ignored/blocked him since my mom was still bullying me about being disloyal to her if i talked to him. I feel a lot of guilt even though i was a kid being manipulated but i really want to reach out but have no idea what to say. Its a lot considering ill be telling him hes a grandfather too. I still have his number and looking for advice