I was not born into a Muslim family. My family isn't very religious, but I'm learning more about different religions — I apologize if this question is stupid, my information base on Islam is still relatively small and new. I just want to know how that selection is made, and is there a ceremony for it? Like how in Hinduism, most brahmins have a "threading ceremony"? Or Baptism in Christianity? I really appreciate any help you can provide! :))
I am not desperately crying over him every night. But I miss him in a way that quietly lingers in the back of my mind. It's been 3 months now since we broke up. I'm 16 and he was my first love, and I feel really dumb because I know I have my whole life ahead of me. But I loved him so much and still do and I have no idea why. I have no reason to hate him, we split for multiple reasons. He didn't do anything, neither did I, it was just timing. All my friends say I need to hate him to move on but I just can't. I didn't love him for what we had, or what he could give me, or how he treated me - rather for who he is as a person. And he is so sweet, so handsome, so gentle, so mature and so incredibly smart. We only dated for 5 months, but I learnt so much from him in that span of time. He was my first kiss
He's moving away for college soon (he's a senior, I'm a junior in hs), and toward the end of our relationship, we'd have really petty and pointless arguments. He's shy, and his ex before me had cheated on him so he would sometimes get really skeptical and make pointless accusations, which really hurt me because I would never do something like that to him. He found out one of my guy-friends liked me, so I cut him off immeadiately so as to not have him overthink about anything. But everytime we'd have an argument he would bring him up. And so we broke up for the better. And everytime something happened, he would just push me away when all I wanted to do was be there for him
But I can't help but love him. I don't know what to do, all my friends say I deserve better. He himself said I deserve better but I am so incredibly in love with him still, it's embarrassing. I literally cannot imagine being with anyone else, that thought makes me sick to my stomach. He was my bestfriend, not just my boyfriend