I actually had a bad gut feeling about this religion
At 15, I thought I had been "born again". I felt "god's peace". I accepted Jesus as my lord and saviour. I was "on fire for God" and felt a spiritual high. I was convinced that I was on the right path. Sermons preaching about God's love and forgiveness, and praise and worship and salvation
But deep down, I had a gut feeling that this religion isn't right for me and seems problematic. With that zealous feeling, I also started to have a lot of doubts when it came to the Bible, God's plans, character, inconsistencies within the religion, etc. I saw how this religion isn't really to be trusted, too many inconsistencies, denominations, Bible versions and apocrypha books. But I shoved it down and said it's the devil that's making feel this way, God's ways are higher. I was very brainwashed already. So I continued, while shoving down doubts and forcing the zealous feeling back. In the end after 3 years, I couldn't anymore.
I regret following Christ and his religion, I should have followed my gut feeling. The religion damaged my self esteem, my view on my sexuality, my mental health, developed terrible scrupulously (had it before but got very bad). Made my Anxiety worse that it already was. I even developed physical health problems from anxiety.
I feel like I wasted so much precious time, I feel it has stunted my growth as a person. These years should have been spent to get to know myself as a person and grow instead. Christianity is one of my biggest regrets till date.