So basically something I don't want is going to happen and fighting it is hurting me and making me depressed. I want to accept it and essentially gaslight myself into believing that it's great. Open to other ways of rewiring the brain too if you have any ideas.
I think I gave my best performance in my University admission interview. I wasn't taking it seriously. I thought there was no way I was getting in anyway. I didn't know any of the interviewers so I was like "who cares if I fuck up? They won't see me again xD" And I was so articulate! I gave such sharp answers. Very unexpected from me. I passed and graduated from that university in the end xD And another thing also helps. It's to embrace your inner narcissist. Just think everyone else is illiterate and uncultured and don't know enough to judge you. It helps if you actually think like that. Won't work if it's someone who genuinely intimidates you though.
Why am I hard on myself? I don't judge anyone else for being quiet. How come I'm always feeling like a loser for not having work friends? I don't even know if people genuinely judge me or if I'm imagining it. I can't really... connect with people. I have no desire to learn more about them. I talk to them about work-related stuff. I have nothing more to ask or offer. A few vocal people have brought it up that I'm too quiet. Is that bad? It's not even introversion entirely, I do have social anxiety. What do you even talk to your coworkers about? Idgaf about their spouse, their kids or their holiday plans. And I've been so quiet for so long, it's scary to raise my voice and enter the conversation.
Anyone having battery issues? I set up my echo mini to turn off after an hour of use. I often get interrupted at work and forget to turn it off. I thought the shut down setting would help. But I've noticed that a few times, the battery completely drained. I had full charge so it's unlikely it completely drained in an hour. It must've not turned off at all.
Don't know how to tag this. Non-fiction, fiction both are fine. Just don't recommend biographies xD It has to be a fun read. Anything science related. Scientific research, discoveries, inventions. Sci-Fi is welcome as long as it's grounded in reality like Andy Weir's books. Computer related stuff is fine too like The Cuckoo's Egg. Don't hesitate, just drop the names. I'll look them up. I'm so hungry for this type of books TT