I can’ t manage my fear of abandonment anymore. The fear of being cheated on again causes me indescribable anxiety, and I can’t control it at all. Even though I’m in therapy and some things have improved, it still feels terrible. I wish I could stop suffering forever. I was on treatment for a year after a two-year relationship,my first relationship,and I also had attempts and major sleep problems.
Now I’ve found myself getting attached to someone again, and I feel a strong urge to run away. I want to fake my death so they would think I no longer exist, just so I wouldn’t have to suffer anymore. I know it’s wrong, but I don’t know what else I can do. It’s hard for me both to leave on my own and be alone, and to stay with the risk of being hurt.
I’m very, very jealous and possessive, and on top of that I think I have a complicated attachment style sometimes anxious, sometimes I feel like doing extreme things like this. Today I didn’t reply to him at all, and I keep thinking about telling him something like this so I won’t be put in a position where I could suffer. I’m too afraid of being cheated on and abandoned again.
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I can’ t manage my fear of abandonment anymore. The fear of being cheated on again causes me indescribable anxiety, and I can’t control it at all. Even though I’m in therapy and some things have improved, it still feels terrible. I wish I could stop suffering forever. I was on treatment for a year after a two-year relationship,my first relationship,and I also had attempts and major sleep problems.
Now I’ve found myself getting attached to someone again, and I feel a strong urge to run away. I want to fake my death so they would think I no longer exist, just so I wouldn’t have to suffer anymore. I know it’s wrong, but I don’t know what else I can do. It’s hard for me both to leave on my own and be alone, and to stay with the risk of being hurt.
I’m very, very jealous and possessive, and on top of that I think I have a complicated attachment style sometimes anxious, sometimes I feel like doing extreme things like this. Today I didn’t reply to him at all, and I keep thinking about telling him something like this so I won’t be put in a position where I could suffer. I’m too afraid of being cheated on and abandoned again.