
u/HuckleberryNo9852

Feeling sad today
I can’t stop thinking about my ex and our baby, it feels so awful. I also can’t stop thinking about how my ex treated me. Sometimes i wish i had kept my daughter even if i was a single mom. Abortion was necessary for me at the time, but i regret it alot. I thought having an abortion would save our relationship and it didn’t. I wanted to make it work with my ex so bad, but i knew that i deserved better. I got through mother’s day, but the anniversary of my abortion is coming up on July 2nd. I don’t know how i’m going to get through it.
need advice
i sent a dm to this girl on tik tok who is also wlw and from my state. Shes single and I thought she was cute so i was flirting with her. We ended up adding each other on insta and snap and have been talking since last night. The only issue is i feel like it was extremely impulsive of me to pursue her as i just got out of a really bad and intense relationship with my ex gf. It’s only been a month since we’ve been broken up. I feel really bad because i’m not emotionally available and i feel like it was a mistake to message her. I really don’t want to hurt her feelings, so i don’t know what to do. I honestly didn’t even think she would respond to me or be interested in talking to me. I feel so awful.
I’ve been seeing this car in my neighborhood since last june, every time i see it i take a picture. Could this be a sign that hecate wants to work with me?
What does my house say about me ?
Hello! someone please help, where is this exact location? People are gatekeeping it on Tik Tok
Last year i kept trying to get a hold of my friend, my messages weren’t going through for months. I was dealing with a lot in my personal life so let it go for a while and figured maybe she blocked me or didn’t want to be in contact anymore. But it always confused me because that wasn’t like her at all. A few months ago i tried to contact her via facebook again, and even on facebook messenger my messages wouldn’t go through. So i finally went to her husband’s page and found out that she passed away last September. I had no idea that she even died and had to find out 6 months after the fact which was extremely upsetting.
She was highly intuitive and spiritually knowledgeable. She acted as sort of mentor/teacher towards me. She always told me that my purpose was important, and that i’m very spiritually gifted and needed to tap into my abilities better. Before i lost contact with her we were planning on starting a podcast/tik tok where we would talk about spiritually related things.
What confuses and upsets me most is how mysterious the circumstances of her death are. Her husband and family have been very private, and there are no articles or an obituary online. From what I’ve gathered from her husband’s facebook account, she went missing for three days after wandering off during a “manic” episode. Her body was later found on a trail near her home. Even though she struggled with mental illness and addiction, she genuinely wanted to live, which makes this very difficult for me to make sense of. I know she wouldn’t want me to dwell on how she died, but the uncertainty has been very painful. If anyone can pick up anything i would more than appreciate it.