Golden Teacher 6g Lemon Tek Trip Report
Preparation:
Took the powder out of the freezer an hour prior. The jar reached room temperature with zero condensation.
Put 6g of finely ground powder into a plastic cup, added 100% organic NFC pure lemon juice, and mixed in a little 40°C (104°F) water to make a soft slush.
Let it steep for 20 minutes. Playlist: Music for Mushrooms: A Soundtrack for the Psychedelic Practitioner. Airplane mode on. Sleep mask on.
Volume set to 50% of my usual comfortable listening level. Ingested at 10:40 AM.
The Come-up:
I found myself in the center of a deep meditation. My sense of existence began to fade, and the boundaries between myself and the world blurred. It felt as though my mind and body had separated, allowing me to observe my own body directly. I felt incredibly peaceful. It was like being in a deep sleep, yet my consciousness remained fully awake. The music started to sound grand and majestic.
Throughout the trip, my body remained completely motionless, locked in a state of profound comfort. My jaw loosened, and my mouth hung open. I didn't resist. The thought "Is this the meditation that Buddha experienced?" crossed my mind repeatedly.
Occasionally, I felt slight tension building in my body, which I would consciously release back into relaxation.
Mid Phase:
My body grew hot; I started sweating heavily and felt stuffy and overheated. It felt like I was sitting right in the middle of a sauna.
I was covered with a blanket and wanted to throw it off, but I didn't want to break the deep meditative state, so I accepted it. I just observed. I didn't move, and I didn't resist.
I made a mental note to start without a blanket next time. Suddenly, my mouth opened even wider. I took several deep breaths. My body remained completely still, almost paralyzed, yet incredibly comfortable.
The Comedown:
Suddenly, a strong vibration and a sense of heaviness rushed into both of my arms. I distinctly felt the tactile sensation of my tongue return inside my mouth. I took several deep breaths and yawned. I kept clicking my tongue (making a "tsk tsk" sound). My bodily senses came back to life. I could feel the textures of the world again. I felt my body waking up. The texture of the sweat-soaked blanket became distinctly noticeable, and the stuffy, sauna-like feeling dissipated. I stretched. I yawned several more times. I knew for sure the trip was over.
The Afterglow:
I took off the sleep mask and got out of bed. I checked the time; about 5 hours had passed. I didn't resist wherever my subconscious led me. Suddenly, I walked over to the window and started staring blankly outside. I realized I had entered a meditative state while standing.
My shoulders were slightly slouched, and all the tension was completely drained from my body. I didn't resist. I have never felt such comfort in a standing, motionless posture before. Normally, I would have felt discomfort somewhere and naturally shifted my weight or posture. But this time, I entered meditation while standing. I only felt the weight of gravity on the soles of my feet. I closed my eyes. I took deep breaths. I continued clicking my tongue. How much time had passed? I checked the clock and 30 minutes had gone by. I drank some water. The sound of swallowing sounded incredibly crisp and clear.
Reflections:
I have a stuttering trauma that has persisted for over 30 years. I want to live a more extroverted life, step out into the world, and build a happy family.
The onset was so smooth it was hard to even notice. It didn't hit me like a whirlwind; it felt more like slowly drifting into a deep sleep and entering a meditative state.
I didn't see any hallucinations, it didn't dig up specific traumatic memories, and I didn't suddenly feel euphoria or anxiety. There were no emotional swings. My mind remained quiet throughout the entire trip. My body was completely still and very comfortable, like being in a deep sleep. However, my mind was awake and aware. It felt like waking up from a deep meditative state.
It struck me that this is not meant for simple pleasure or recreation. I was sweating profusely as if in a sauna, locked in deep meditation—how could anyone use this purely for fun?
Now that the trip is over, contrary to my expectations, I don't feel "reborn." The world doesn't look brighter, things don't feel new, and I don't feel overflowing with happiness. I just feel like I'm back to my normal self.
Some people report feeling immense euphoria, a deep connection to nature, or traveling through the universe, but it seems I'm not one of them.
As for whether this achieved the therapeutic trauma-healing or neuroplastic effects I was hoping for, I'm not an expert, so I don't really know. I suppose I'll have to wait and see in my daily life.
Question for the community:
If there are any experts or experienced practitioners reading this, please leave a comment: Did this somatic release have a therapeutic effect? Since I didn't experience the typical ego death or emotional catharsis, was the dose insufficient? Should I increase the dose next time?
