i am so tired of failure. i keep doing bad on exams across all subjects, keep getting rejected by professors for research, i literally lost in the competitive team that I founded…. i’m extremely lazy and addicted to my phone, and now i just found out that i did really bad on my sat. Now I have to live with all this while 2 of my ap’s are in a week (taking ap physics 1 and apush) and i haven’t even started studying for apush. never in my life have i experienced this many setbacks. it does not help that all of my friends are doing exceptionally well. one of my friends found out she got into an mit summer program today, another got an all time high sat score of 1470 with a perfect math score, and others are generally doing well recently.
i might sound corny, but maybe good things are not meant to happen to me anymore. i got into a pretty competitive high school, im a founder of a team at school, and i got into this summer program thing at a university in my city. all of my luck has clearly been used up with this
i’m crying as i write this. i just do not know what to do. maybe a top college is not meant for someone like me. sorry that this is cringe, but i truly think i would be better off going to some mid college with other lazy people just like me. my 95 gpa is too low to compete with my friends’ 100 gpas anyway, and my sat score is trash. sorry if this seems insensitive or annoying but i’m literally at my lowest right now and i’m too embrassaed to talk to anyone about it