I met this girl in college and we just clicked. We spent so many hours with each other and I really like her. I finally had the talk with her regarding our dynamic because it's not like a friendly connection sort of thing.
She said I'd be the person she'd date. That we're compatible. That she'd be sad if I dated someone else. But she wants to figure herself out first, thinks super long term, and doesn't want to start something that becomes long distance(it mostly will be).
Her reasons make sense but also I was hoping that maybe she would give this a shot. For me atleast uncertainty is a part of life and we have almost a year to figure things out but she didn't want to do that.
I'm just crushed because the connection I've had with this person felt really special. And staying friends with her hurts because I see the potential and so I'm stepping away for a bit. I'm grateful that she did not lead me on and that we spoke about it and I got much needed clarity. But, this hurts and I'm just really sad about the outcome.