What are my next steps I don’t see any?
Me and my boyfriend for three years started out good but eventually he became abusive. He would have cycles of nice, and then get upset because I don’t go the gym, have a good career, and am ugly and useless. I stayed because I thought some of that was true. This all started when I found out he was cheating on me with guys and girls. After that he became more increasingly violent. He would choke me, push me into the wall, hit me in the face repeatedly, scream in my face. Then one day he threw a chair at me, because he found out when I had a black eye I texted another guy saying, “you’re just mad we haven’t seen each other”, proving I never even seen this guy in person just texted him. After these blowouts I was crazy too screaming, missing work over 10 jobs, yelling, showing up at his job, yelling at him in public top of my lungs. I just felt so ashamed I know this is insane behavior. I was not the perfect partner. All of this resulted in him receiving 2 misdemeanors and 2 felonies. I had sent all of the police evidence I didn’t really feel the hits in the moment I was just numb. And now it’s all catching up to me, his life could be ruined from these charges. However, Massachusetts does have a low conviction rate. I am not planning on testifying, either way I am weak I called the police not to do anything, I freaked over someone who clearly never liked me and if I were to tell anyone this: they would just say move on. But if anyone has been in a toxic relationship, sometimes you really do care about them.