u/Golden_Faux

Had this christian guy sneak into my dms, he’s old enough to be my dad talking about he won’t get sexual… like I was thinking about that, sure. My god it’s like they’re projecting what they really want to do

He read a post where I shared I was ghosted by a fellow Christian friend at the time. He read how it hurt me, dude love bombs me then blocks. No hate like christian love… we only chatted for a day but what a insecure baby, doesn’t even give me a reason, maybe he really wanted to get frisky and wasn’t getting it idk 🤷

Deleted the post out of frustration that every time I go to christians for anything I get hurt and ignored. I shouldn’t have deleted because it was nothing but support, just the 1% of assholes ruin it for me. Idk if it’s my ocd, adhd, depression, but regardless dick move and so fake.

"Give yourself some time, you're on a journey, please reach out if you need a friend, because I need a friend too lol" is basically how he reached out to me initially. He commented on a post about me recently accepting myself as a gay.

He's still online to this day and recently mentioned he got a new job as a therapist 🫠 I'm now in therapy ironically, he's shown he doesn't care for me at all, he had a chance to care for 1 year...

We shared faith, similar struggles and just supported each other, he was an amazing friend. I was as vulnerable as one can be, and he knew that when he saw my post. Once he ghosted me I was confused and having to navigate the hurt alone.

BLOCKED and all chats hidden now after 1 year. I deserved closure and honesty.

I guess I'II just struggle with my depression, OCD, anxiety, and ADHD, cause he's doing well himself like I never existed.

I struggled for a long time dealing with the hurt of a past friend who cut me off abruptly with no reason at all. He is still online to this day and still posting, I recently decided to block him and hide all our chats after contemplating if I should reach back out again after 1 year of silence from him. What hurts the most is the confusion he left me with during one of the most vulnerable stages of my life. I now feel like I was some sort of emotional tool to him. We talked about our lives, struggles, and supported each other’s beliefs. Being gay is already hard enough, but to feel betrayed by a fellow gay believer at the time was another level of hurt and abandonment that I never experienced before in my life.

It's been over a year and I still think about how much your services affected me. By far the worst "therapy" I've ever had in my life. Let's go back to our first session, I had told you that I, as a minor saw things no child should ever have. I brought my dad in for one session only, he agreed to discuss. I brought up the harm he's done, and the harm it still does to me this day when he denies being involved. You choose to keep on giving him the benefit of the doubt, making me seem like some lying accuser. You tried to make me out as this child who may have seen things wrong. Fuck that, I know exactly what I saw, I'm not crazy or overreacting. This is exactly why my mother divorced him, he's a liar, he's manipulative, and a coward, his only interest is himself. He betrayed my trust and I'll never look to him again as my hero or have sympathy for him as I once did. A half-ass insincere apology is all I get from him right AFTER the fact I brought up he has no apology for my trauma "see, he apologized" you said like I'm a child, like his one sentence apology fixes anything.
We continued having sessions for a couple of months, none of your advice really stuck through or was applicable at all to me. By the end I couldn't be bothered, I don't know if you expected me to reach out again for another appointment, or if you were just done and intentionally didn't book another appointment cause I'm gay. Either way it was unprofessional but not completely surprising. After that point I almost gave up, I never felt heard or supported all my life by anyone, I stopped believing that therapy was even beneficial, that maybe life had no one for me.
Looking back over a year ago I'm proud of myself, even though I was scared and uncertain and in a vulnerable state, I stood on what I believed in, when I had just came out as gay to you. I'm still not ashamed or regret my choice and I have opened a lot of doors since having more confidence in myself and who I am. I'm no longer that closeted little boy anymore who believed that god hates me for who I am. Hell, I'm not even religious anymore at all, you definitely are a major reason why I stopped believing. Not the sole reason but still a big factor in it.
I can't believe how much I considered, how much I tolerated because I had a certain level of trust in you, you had power to change me into someone I'm not, and I listened to all of your stupid arguments and analogies against being gay. From the bible to theoretical situations, at the end of the day it doesn't hurt not a single soul to love who you want to love. And the bible doesn't explicitly say same-sex relationships are wrong.
So yeah had to let it out, fuck your overpriced religious services, I have a much better therapist now and am glad that strangers encouraged me online to be better and continue looking for better, cause I have found that and more.