u/GlitteringTone6425

Ok i'm gonna sound fucking deranged here but hear me out

I am bi, and while i certainly have felt homosexual feelings in the past, i've always found it "easier" to be attracted to women. Maybe it was because i was raised as a "Straight man", or maybe it's because of my own nonbinary gender baggage, who knows.

Recently my shrink prescribed me risperidone a month or so ago, and around the time after that i have had some of the worst bouts of "what if you're actually straight and a FILTHY QUEERBAITING LIAR" ocd ever, and i genuinley feel like i'm much less attracted to men right now. The only different variable now is the new medication.

I have read around the internet and i've seen multiple people report similar things with other psych medication, and risperidone does affect your sex drive in a way that could tank my less potent attraction to men. i don't know but i have a strong suspicion that's the case.

The reason i'm sharing this as a win is that, if this is true, i finally have peace of mind. i'm not sure if i should stop it because it has been genuinely helping me in other departments, but at least i have a bludgeon to put down any intrusive thoughts with if i stay on the medication

TO BE CLEAR, I AM NOT SAYING THE MEDICATION TURNED ME STRAIGHT, THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE, IT JUST FUCKS WITH MY LIBIDO