u/Glittering-Fault-278

I want to keep it short and simple but of course with plenty detail. I (F) and my boyfriend had a situation where our relationship just got really hard and he broke up with me one night. It wasn’t anyone’s fault, we both just weren’t happy and things weren’t working for us. I don’t remember which night because we were broken up for 4-5 days but I’ll just say the first for this, I had called someone who used to like me. My partner knows about this person and he actually was a problem when we first got together, he tried to get back in contact after a year of not speaking, kept calling me, texting me from random numbers etc. I blocked him of course on everything whenever he reached out because I wasn’t interested. Well that night I had messaged him on Instagram asking did he want to still speak and we ended up talking on the phone for about an hour, nothing came about the convo, we just had mini updates, I wasn’t as talkative (very upset and hurt about my breakup) and we made it known that this conversation was more like a rebound in a way, not sexual but in a “I’m just talking to you because I’m lonely” kinda thing.

He ended up messaging me like the next day, I didn’t text him back for a while, kept it extremely short and vague. I was trying to get back with my ex. I never met up with this boy, i ended up blocking him 3-4 days later because me and my boyfriend got back together and I haven’t heard from him since.

Now im just a little worried and i feel bad that i even reached out to somebody for comfort. I know it isn’t cheating because we were broken up and that was the first time i ever reached out to anybody (we’ve broken up before and I knew we’d get back together but this time i thought it was truly over).

I really feel like I cheated even though technically speaking we were broken up and thought it was done for good, he was telling me to move out I said the same, I was apartment hunting and everything.

I’m even more worried he’ll think I was disloyal by doing that. I wasn’t over him in the moment. I was crying, eyes puffy and needed to talk to someone for comfort, I didn’t eat for days when we broke up and I just needed to feel something. I only spoke to this guy on the phone once, and we only messaged (no more than 10 messages all together) the day after than and nothing since.

By the way me and my boyfriend are back together as mentioned and apologies were said and everything is all good

Please give me your thoughts as I’m stumped, feel bad, and worried.