now na i’m here (ulit) sa Manila Cathedral, i am again yearning for something genuine na. Enough with the “hoe phase” i’m in
I want someone who is genuine to me na, yung masasama ko here, and to have a mass sa iba pang churches. Someone who’ll i have sa galaan and all
and maybe for now, I’ll yearn and pray for someone nalang 🥹🫶🏻
hello po! so i downloaded grindr kanina while traffic going home supposed to be an experiment and trolling lang ended me sucking a resident to where i live.
he said he was clean naman and i trusted him so i licked his cum na nasa tummy nya which i swallowed. I know oral sex has a low chance of transmission unless my sugat pero i’ll still buy pep tomorrow.
ang akin lang is SHET FIRST TIME KO YUN BOTH KISSING AND SUCKING. HE SAID I AM A GOOD KISSER DAW AND SUCKING COULD BE BETTER PA
OMYGOSHHHHHH😭😭😭😭 HINDI NA VIRGIN ANG MOUTH
MYGOSHHHHH OUT OF ALL DAYS TALAGA LORD😭😭
back story, been craving na kiligin na ulit. Kasi longest usap ko was 6 months and it ended as a situationship pala (literal na tanga pa ako) kaya tumagal
now, i am missing the feeling na kilig, pero compared sa past na to, i want to experience kilig hindi lang sa chat but sa personal na din. I want to experience going sa date, and a bunch of date like church date, picnic date, movie date, and what so ever
TAPOS WHILE NASA QUIAPO OMAYGOSH I SAW THE GUY THAT MADE ME REALIZE NA HINDI AKO STRAIGHT! AND AS ALWAYS ANG GWAPO PA NYA PADIN FUCK🥹 he also has a gf na din
HAYSTTTTT OUT OF ALL DAYS BAKIT KO SYA NAKITA, nothing happened between us and basically casual friends lang kasi he was a friend of my friend
MISS KO NA KILIGIN!
idk where i am nanaman😭 i feel numb, weak, stupid, idk as in
something’s missing pero idk what, idk if burnout ba to (2nd year - SN), yearning for a rs or a constanr kausap, acads, finance, self? idk i generally dont know
naisip ko to rant here kasi as in i dont know ang atake ko like??????? i feel stupid feeling this way kasi i know myself and i should know ano ba talaga nangyayari sakin
maybe i am mad at myself kasi sanay ako na i figure everything on my own without a problem, and with this, idk era literal na idk
im tired, i want to rest, i want to leave everything behind kahit ilang araw, linggo or months lang
hahahahayst. I feel like meron pa akong gustong sabihin pero idk how to put it into words haha🥹
i feel like “seeking” type of post to
idk, akala ko tapos na “hoe phase” ko, though online lang naman sya and i didn’t go “physical” so virgin pa din ang body pero ang eyes and brain ay hindi na. They/me labeled me na “physically a virgin, mentally a whore”.
now, i feel like bumabalik nanaman yung “hoe phase” ko pero this time i want to do it physically. Kasi urges to try sucking a dick and experience momol is out of this world.
like legit, i woke up kasi i dreamt of sucking a dick. Now, urges are strong and i really want to try sucking and experience kissing someone (as a literal virgin). Problem ko lang ay ang rising cases of HIV and the idea na some are really wild for a virgin ahhhh
and also, i want to swallow and taste other mens cum, kasi i swallow mine (weird ba?) and now i want to taste naman sa ibang lalake
any thoughts?
gosh! after how many months of not feeling anything like this, ito nanaman ako, yearning for someone, a constant kausap, a person who would smile at me when he irritates me, a boyfriend.
SN here, even before this tiring PM duty, ewan ko bigla ko nanaman na-feel na sana may kausap ako to update and rant, out of a sudden I missed the feeling na may ka-late night talks, deep convos, jeje pick-up lines na would literally make me laugh
been doing some solo dates, really happy kasi i even got the chance na makapag pa-picture sa photographers in Luneta, but while looking at my picture nung nasa National Museum of Anthropology ako, idk just felt na “this would be fun if i have my suitor/boyfriend/special someone with me siguro?” even though it’s not my first time mag solo date, or utmost mag museum date
little rant lang ng isang bi na 2nd year SN na pagod nanaman sa PM duty🥹✊🏻