Help with reconciliation
Hello people,
I write here seeking your help as I feel desperate and lost. Me 'M/33' and my ex '30/F' have broke up after like 4 months together for something stupid I did.
It was a distance relationship, I took a flight to see her and spend some time together and the next day I received a message from a girl that I used to talk to and when she saw that she got alarmed and really mad and ended up kicking out of her house… i understand I did something wrong, and even worse: I deleted the conversation out of fear or nervousness - and then the worst thing: she realized that that girl had her blocked (the don’t know each other) when I asked the other girl she said that she blocks a lot of accounts when they keep showing always on her profile… I don’t know, not my business and I respect this decision.
This whole thing obviously affected me in a crazy way… 8 hours flights, having to end up in hotel alone, humiliated, anxious, lost… but I guess I deserve it. My mistake.
I have never met this person, she lives in a different country where I haven’t ever been, and we only talked online.
Now after almost a month, Im feeling desperate to try to do something to apologize and recover her… anything, I loved this woman, I love her and I want to keep loving her. I know this must hate me or maybe already moved on, but something inside me tells me to really try.
I'm thinking to travel again to her country and try to surprise her with something… I don’t know what exactly to do, but im really willing to do literally anything. I want to sincerely apologize, show her my intentions, win back her trust and let her be my baby girl.
Can you please help me? Anyone been in some similar situation? Something that worked?