u/GhettoGringo87

So I’ve been battling this stupid addiction for a few months now. Started as a brief break from anxiety, but my access to them was a problem after the first dose.

I’ve been in recovery for over 5 years. Basically just weed…but also been on subs for a few years during this time. I actually have not too much against subs as they really helped my mental health, but more importantly my ability to function as a professional. I do wanna get off them at some point, but it wasn’t on my list of things to do anytime soon.

So I been using .5mg clonazipam daily for probably 6 weeks, and progressive use from 1x a week to daily the 6 weeks prior. My anxiety kept me trapped with impulsive dosing. Again, the access is what got me. Fiancé had them for years, and only now did I find myself stuck in it. I’m reminded I’m a true addict…

Anyways, been trying to taper and decrease, but stuck at .25-.5 fluctuating. Gonna take a leave of absence from work as a 1099 contractor so no fmla or assistance…but I have no choice. It’s Jew using benzos and get in a worse spot, or take a two week hit. Easy decision when I really think about it…never done anything like this so feel guilty, but it is what it is..

When your raid partners from around the globe finally make forever friends, and it’s lucky, then they start a trade but they got pretty crap options while you have an entire arsenal of good stuff? Like I wanna hook ya up because I got plenty, but if I get rid of my good stuff, I won’t have anything to trade for other good stuff I don’t have…

Also, if you are one that doesn’t have good stuff, don’t go looking for shiny Zac bg, shiny zam bg, shiny Ray, etc…you got piplup shiny and a background dynamax charmander…

But still…I feel bad. Like in my mind it’s some kid on the other end who doesn’t have money to raid as much or as often or hosts all the time…and I wanna just make someone’s day, but at the same time, it’s more likely some turd teen or adult lookin to scam a kid lol