I 21M destroyed my relationship 21F but we still love each other
We have been together for 3 years, I really do love her, I made mistakes I have acted irresponsible and like a child, but she was always there for me, she has acted in wrong ways too but I can't blame her, I did wrong myself.
15 days ago there was a situation where she found out I went out and a misunderstanding of me being at a party, I wasn't I just left my friends there but I don't blame her for not believing me, some days go buy she wants to break up I totally understand her but I explain to her and beg her to stay cause I truly love her, and those days l totally understood what she means to mean and how much I want to give her the world.
Some days later we go out and out of fun she checks my follows etc, and she finds me following a girl I had no connection with, I did not know her and same for her, neither any of my friends etc. What I think is it's an old request that made the account public or something but totally I did not do anything, I never foll anyone.
Days go by, I went to Amsterdam with some friends and all I could think was her, she did not want to talk with me becau she was beeping uncomfortable with me being there (which I totally understand) but I kept DMing her and trying to talk etc, she firstly told me she did not want to talk but to be real I kept messaging etc, but she replied to most of them.
Yesterday she was telling me a friend of hers broke up and while doing that she mentioned that they will get back together and her friend will settle for less than she deserves. And she mentioned she was doing the same too, which totally broke me. I can't make her feel like that I love her, but I am doing her wrong, how can I do that to her?
She does not feel happy with me or when she does but later she does not, I know that, I feel that.
