u/GayAssBeagle

I just wanna happy vent because I’m going to college in the fall and I’m so pumped still. Like I’m gonna be a first gen college student and I got hella help from the fam and friends so I’m cheesed.

I honestly can’t wait to go to med school! Like so many people warn me it’s gonna be exhausting and expensive but at this point I don’t give a damn I’m going . I’m gonna do my best and try to help folks out to my best ability

I can’t wait for this to change me and to see it happen . I know i won’t notice in the moment but when it comes oh my god im gonna be so excited.

If any college students or med students have stories or advice or just general word , that would be amazing.

I’m like a fat chubby dog that’s so excited to eat a milkbone “YESS YESS YESS GOD YESS YESS”

Anybody in any of them can tell me what they’re like on campus. I’m going to the Armstrong campus and see very little about it . I’m totally down. I’m not going into Savannah, but not.

Not too long ago I finally had the argument with my grandpa , the one I had dreaded for years . I don’t know how to handle this right now but everyone is tense in the house now .

My grandpa has long wanted a musical prodigy in the family , it was his biggest dream for at least ONE of his kids to be talented . The only one that WAS was adopted and he couldn’t accept that so he pushed his other children: his oldest son was (and still is) a talented artist, his second oldest was better at spreadsheets and office stuff, his youngest was close and went into accounting. Then came time for me : his only grandchild, only flesh and blood grandchild. He was HARD on me in middle and high school about band and he never let up , I HATED it .i was a bit like my uncle : I love to write and draw and make stories . Band was nice for connecting and being in groups but it wasnt my thing .

He HATED this and constantly pushed me and got angry at me about it. I tried to offer alternatives and maybe some workarounds but all that ended in a screaming match that left me in tears as he basically disowned me.

This isn’t uncommon apparently as my mom said she went through the same thing when she spoke out the same . Now I feel guilty about yet another argument.

A few days ago I came home from work , exhausted from a 10 hour shift with only two other people at a fast food job. We ran out of so much and I was just so tired . Here comes my grandpa wanting to talk to me. I can’t even focus at this point, I’m just trying to get a shower going on . But he’s on my case about the job , about my college plan - he actually hates it and thinks it’s an excuse for something “bigger I was hiding “ (idk what the fuck that means ) ,he kept going on about how this is the problem with people my age and how we get tired too easily and how lazy we were . I was at first not gonna entertain this foolishness but then he came after my mom (his own daughter)

My mother has her illness an has been trying to find work , she’s lost it due to discrimination at every job. They cannot accommodate and choose to fire as it’s a right to work state and shit . She’s been trying to find work this year and so far nothing , it’s not easy as it was for him and he can’t see that. He can’t see that she’s been crying every night , trying to figure out what’s she’s doing wrong. It’s not her fault , but he made it seem so.

He told me I was stupid for not quitting on the spot and looking for something else like I had planned. My mom stopped me and we agreed on getting a set amount and some extra before quitting . This dude went mad and talked his shit and I snapped . I feel so filthy , I have been tiring myself trying to maintain a good relationship with this man but when he did this and said I haven’t worked a real job it got to me.

I’ve tried to find real work but it’s been hard , this current job is the only one that called back . It’s not luxury but I didn’t care , I just needed money to pay off my bills and debts . But he wanted me to quit on the spot like some madman. Then he got on me about my generation like dudeeee don’t start this shit.

Simply he calls all the older Gen Z “lazy whiny bitches” which set me off man. Like he seriously believes that because I’m struggling and my cosuin got fired from her job (BECAUSE OF AI) that we are lazy… DUDE IM FUCKING EXHAUSTED HALF THE TIME , LIKE I BARELY GET SLEEP BECAUSE WE ARE SHORT STAFFED AND THEY WANT ME TO PICK UP SHIFTS..What the fuck WHAT THE FUCK??

Like I don’t know what to do, I feel so bad now a few days later because I feel like I snapped too hard , but at the same time this is so embarrassing and exhausting to deal with and I don’t know where to go from here .

My god the best part of watching the movies over again is seeing their dark blue skin under their moonlight . It’s so beautiful and I LOVE THE BIOLUMINESCENCE THEY HAVE OH GODD YESS

I would love a good chunk of the movie being at night more and for more Na’vi to have their bodies just dim in the darkness but have that glow . I can’t get enough of it and I’m obsessed with it so bad right now