u/Fun_Steak_4508

I am legitimately one of the stupidest student in my masters course. And I’m not talking about knowledge, no, I’m aware that we all come from different backgrounds. I’m talking about actual fluid intelligence.

Some of my colleagues think so much better, faster, have much better memory. I forget things all the time, can never answer a question unless it’s very simple, I’m clumsy, I can’t draw logical conclusions. It takes me so much effort to reach the same result like others. And I am totally healthy so it’s not brain fog - my iron and thyroid are great, I sleep 6-8 hours a day, I lift weight and do cardio and take supplements.

I hate and envy my colleagues for being more gifted and being able to actually contribute something to the field. Of course I never act on my envy because they didn’t choose to be smart, and they’re not at fault for it, it’s only my problem. It doesn’t help that they’re better looking and more charismatic either.

Average people like me don’t do breakthroughs. Anyone could have done my job. First time I realized how painfully mediocre I am years ago, it hurt badly, and to this day it hurts just as bad.

I would change careers but I literally don’t know what to do since my field of interest is the only thing I’ve been interested in professionally, and none of my hobbies can be turned into a job.

I hate that I believed I can be someone without realizing I have no potential, no matter how hard I work, and there will be always someone ahead of me.

I am legitimately one of the stupidest student in my masters course. And I’m not talking about knowledge, no, I’m aware that we all come from different backgrounds. I’m talking about actual fluid intelligence.

Some of my colleagues think so much better, faster, have much better memory. I forget things all the time, can never answer a question unless it’s very simple, I’m clumsy, I can’t draw logical conclusions. It takes me so much effort to reach the same result like others. And I am totally healthy so it’s not brain fog - my iron and thyroid are great, I sleep 6-8 hours a day, I lift weight and do cardio and take supplements.

I hate and envy my colleagues for being more gifted and being able to actually contribute something to the field. Of course I never act on my envy because they didn’t choose to be smart, and they’re not at fault for it, it’s only my problem. It doesn’t help that they’re better looking and more charismatic either.

Average people like me don’t do breakthroughs. Anyone could have done my job. First time I realized how painfully mediocre I am years ago, it hurt badly, and to this day it hurts just as bad.

I would change careers but I literally don’t know what to do since my field of interest is the only thing I’ve been interested in professionally, and none of my hobbies can be turned into a job.

I hate that I believed I can be someone without realizing I have no potential, no matter how hard I work, and there will be always someone ahead of me.