Hi everybody, I hope you're doing well. So recently I... I'm still on the journey with manifesting my ex back, and now I've just been kind of focusing on myself and what I do. I've kind of calmed down. I joined this music club in my university and I met a girl, and she is the most beautiful angel I've ever seen. She has this brown, beautiful hair and brown eyes, and she has such a lovely voice when she sings. She has exactly the same taste in anime, music, certain movies and films, and some video games that I played. And everything about her is just perfect. She's really smart, she's studying psychology, and she is literally everything I want to be. She has a perfect family, and everything about her is just perfect. And I couldn't help but compare myself to her because she is literally his type. And because we're gonna be performing on Spring Fest, my mind was like, okay, he's gonna see her, he's gonna hear her voice, he's gonna want to meet her. She's even friends with some of his friends. And I just can't stop the comparisons and the feeling of being replaced. And those thoughts have been in my head so, so, so, so much, and I just keep comparing myself to her, and I'm just so upset that... It's like, I was even crying to the point where I felt like that even happened. Like I'm acting as if it even happened, and he doesn't even know her. He doesn't know that she exists or anything. But in my head, I've placed this story and I keep feeding it and I can't stop it because my brain is just doing that and there's nothing, absolutely nothing I can do to stop that. Then I, my old SP that I wanted, kind of back in my life as well. And he's being all nice and stuff. And then I told my mom about him and she was like, leave that jerk alone, like, don't you dare do anything. And honestly, from now on, I'm not telling my mom anything because my mom, I know she cares about me, but sometimes she's extremely overdramatic, overly negative, especially when it comes to men. She has such a negative mindset about them because of her divorce and stuff, which I understand, but also just because it happens to you, why are you applying and like, it's gonna happen to me. And because of that, I'm scared that her manifestations are gonna affect my life and I really don't know what to do anymore. I honestly kind of just wanna give up on everything. I didn't talk to my ex in like a month or so. Not that we agreed on no contact or anything. I just don't want to be the one who is constantly texting first and asking to meet up. I want him to do that, but um, right now I just want to calm down and I want to work on my confidence and stuff, but I'm struggling so much because I see this girl every single day and each day she's more perfect and perfect. And she's so nice and social and cute, likes to play volleyball here and there, and he also likes to play volleyball. I am so jealous of her. I just wish I was her. And she has these beautiful brown eyes and he told me that he has a preference for brown eyes. I have blue eyes. Literally everybody is complimenting my eyes. How come that out of nowhere, he was also such a big fan of my eyes and now he tells me that he has a preference for brown eyes? Why were we even in a relationship to begin with if I wasn't your type to begin with? And it's so frustrating me. I feel like I wasn't even that much of an important, that I was just like some sort of a distraction for him for in that moment. I want him to love me again, and that's all I want.
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I do indeed see my sp as an npc on a way that I just happen to care about deeply. But recently I joined a music club and I meet a girl....and she is everything I wanna be.
She has beautiful brown hair clear skin cute personality a pretty singing voice cute outfits and brown eyes, she is such a nice person. She is everything I wanna be. I'm struggling a lot with my hair loss and I'm healing my skin from acnie and I have problems with closed pores, I can sing but my voice was injured before so I lost most of my control of it. She is everything I wanna be and she also studies psychology. She is very smart and modest, she had a healthy family, unlike mine my parents are divorced and both my mom and dad are hard to handle mentally.
Ever since I meet her, I don't know how to feel. It's like universe is making me haha. But she's my ex's type. He did say how he likes brown eyes more \[I have blue\] and how he prefers more cute shi and someone similar to him mentally.
I can't help but compare myself. Not tjat I care what he thinks much trust me but it's how I'm allowing myself to feel this way, I can't find myself specal no matter how much I try. There is always someone who outshines you and I feel like I manifested her in a way bc those type of girls are my weaknesses bc they have things I don't.
She's so kind and I hate how I feel about her deep down I feel like I'm faking it. I feel like I'm not a kind person bc of it.
I been looking at her profile a lot and recently I started looking at her from perspective where he already is openly simping for her and he doesn't even know her yet but usually when I do that those things kinda come true. And I see he already knows a lot of her friends bc some of them go to same volleyball club like him and as well as music club so bc I've been afraid of losing him to someone else and those type of girls were always my weakness, I feel like connection is growing amd I'm aware of it and they are not....idk if I'm manifesting something here. If I am plz...how do I feel secure in myself and all of this.
I'm struggling sm these days um not doing well, not bc of him I'm fine, but bc I can't find myself important no matter what I do and what I try and no matter how hard I work it's never enough
And if u are struggling with same thing is how it feels you are not alone much love <3
So 2 years ago I liked this guy and I had my first date with him. I remember listening to subliminals to make him like me more and stuff. When he went to America to work I waited for him and I knew once he comes back we will go on a date but...he got a gf I was so heart broken.
After 4 months my friend told me how he broke up with her and how he regrets everything that happened between me and him and I decided to give him a second chance only for him to leave me on delivered and I unfollowed him and didn't care about him anymore.
I meet now my ex [that I'm manifesting] and we clicked and went on dates and that guy reached out to me asked me why I unfollowed him and I told him I meet someone. And he got back with his ex after some time.
Now me and my ex broke up almost 8 months ago and we been together for 3.5 months. Last time we saw each other he was over at my place minth ago laying on my couch from 7 till midnight watching football match together. No contact for a whole month after that he only reach out when it had to do something about this job we both have.
I go to this running club in my collage and that guy joined and I bumpled into him yesterday and we ended up walking for quite awhile and had a lovely convo. He also drove me back home. I noticed him rewatching my story over and over where I took pics of myself and we are gonna see each other today for a run again.
He is cute and I do like him and his company but there are few things I don't like, like he smokes and drinks and hook ups and stuff so I don't see myself marrying him but more like that emptiness I'm feeling he is filling it up and it feels nice. But also like I do have a tiny crush on him he even appeared in my dream and we kissed and shi and it got me feeling something and I thought of him during the day.
But I still want my ex tho he is more of my type and I do indeed miss him. Now bc I experienced this, I thought yo myself, what if my ex meets up with a girl like this just like I did with that guy and ends up liking her, bc when I was walkijg with that guy in that moment I didn't think twice about my ex only when we started talking about our exs [he broke up with her as well again but I kinda knew he will sooner or later since thair relationship was not so good]
And my fear of being replaced came back again like. If this happens to him, it's different bc I can acually hang out with guys and still want to be with him, he on the other hand, if he wanted to be with me he would've done that long time ago so when he meets someone he won't think about more then just as a mire moment that happened. And I don't want that, I want him to miss me and see how much we click together and that no other girl is gonna replace our energy. But also at the same time me and that guy had romantic interests in each other in the past so it makes same way feel this way. But how come all these dudes be hitting me up but not him.
How do I redirect this. And also how do I feel kit bc I struggle with feeling it a lot?
So, like, before my ex, I had a huge crush on this one guy, and I liked him so much, and I waited for him to come back when he worked in America, and then when he came back, he told me he had a girlfriend and I was really upset. I was crying. And I was like 100% sure he didn't have a girlfriend, but then he ended up getting a girlfriend. I was so sad. I was like, oh my God, my subliminals didn't work and stuff like that. And then four months later, uh, he comes back and my friend tells me, like, how he broke up with his girlfriend, how he's regretting everything, and he wants to start things over with me. I was like, sure, why not? But then while we were texting, he left me on delivered for like weeks. And I was like, yeah, I'm done with him. I don't wanna talk to him anymore.
And that's where I met my ex and we went on dates and stuff like that, and I enjoyed just spending my time with him. And then, um, after everything, uh, that guy reached out to me again. He was like, why did you unfollow me? And I was like, oh, you know, I met someone, blah, blah, blah. And then we kind of stopped talking there. And then during our breakup, we accidentally bumped into each other and we started talking and he went back with his ex. And I saw like previous chats in the server, how, um, how he regrets breaking up with her, how he misses her and stuff like that, and they got back together.
And he just didn't see her as a potential partner anymore because she was not so good with him and then she didn't even try to make a conversation. You said like, we would go on a coffee, we'd talk a little bit, and everything is just like silence, and the whole third thing just felt like that, and I just, I was planning on breaking up with her for a really long time now, but I always had a feeling they were gonna break up again, like I was like, hmm, sure, these guys are gonna break up, because I know that from what my friend told me, from what I was reading, that she wasn't that much of a good of a person, and, you know, I, I always kind of had that thought like in the back of my head. I don't really thought about it much. I was like, oh, like I didn't have feelings for him or anything, nor do I do, but um, right now, I Just had to go outside.
I don't know, I went outside and I got ready and shit, and I thought, I, I knew my ex is kind of finishing his lessons around the time when I was planning to get out. I was like, oh, maybe I'll bump into him. And I did, and I was like, okay, I'm just gonna walk towards where this park is, and I meet that guy. And I already knew he was gonna go on a run that day, but um, I didn't know what hour or that he's gonna be there where I was. But we ended up bumping into each other, and I was like, oh, I'm just gonna go for a walk. He's like, oh, you're gonna go this way? I was like, yeah, I was like, I can join you if you want. I was like, I'm not sure, I didn't caught up with this guy for such a long time. We have had such a lovely conversation. We talked so much and so easy to talk to him, and he was so cute and everything, but I would not go back in a relationship because with him, because I know it's not gonna work out and I'm gonna be hurt and all of that stuff. But, um, yeah, I am, because I'm feeling all of these feelings right now, right? I'm just like, oh, like, oh, this isn't so bad. Like, I can see I can move on and I can find someone else and I can, you know, potentially not always be stuck on my ex as much as I think I do. I feel like we have a choice if we want to move on or we want to love someone and not love someone anymore.
And I keep choosing to like him because I'm afraid if I stop liking him, then it's completely over and there's nothing between us. And um, I don't, I don't know if that's like true or not, but uh I always think like my thoughts that I'm having is the same thoughts that he's having. And um, yeah, maybe the whole entire reason why he's still around is because he also didn't meet someone like how I'm at up with that guy and had like a lovely conversation just now. The same thing with him. Like the reason why he's still around is because he just didn't find a girl who he can talk to like that and be interested in. So um, that is just my realistic brain talking again. But then at the end, I'm like, I always thought I'm gonna be the one who is not gonna be able to get into a relationship or something like that. But like the more I see, like I keep getting so much attention from guys lately and people ask for my Instagram and his friends are liking my stories when I'm taking pictures of myself. I remember this one time one friend of his requested a follow.
And, yeah, I was like, weird. And I don't know how to currently feel right now, because, like, I'm currently taking a break from manifesting what is what, who belongs to who, and who's with whom. I don't wanna think about that anymore. I just kind of wanna focus on myself until I can clearly decide what I want to believe in. Because, for example, it was really easy for me to believe that that guy is gonna break up with his girlfriend because I knew they were not that much of a good of a. They had problems before, they were toxic before, they didn't work out the first time, they didn't work out again. Um, so, uh, I was like, really, you know, it was easy for me, but when it comes to my ex, I'm manifesting my ex back, part of me believes that it can be possible because he's a guy, and guys don't get over their exes that easily, especially when the emotion and connection was deep. But um, the other side of my brain is like, this is like a bigger side. It's like, uh-huh, look, look how I was able to switch partners. He can do easily do the same thing. It's a natural human brain. It's gonna create connections. So, um. And I feel like kind of that it's over between me and him, like I feel like it's done. But also deep down, I don't want to believe that, because I still, you know, I still want him, obviously, but um I cannot believe it so easily as much as I believed the other thing with the other guy, because I'm not 100% certain.