u/FullMoonEmptySoul

I’m wondering if I can pay a certain amount of money to just maintain at least Gold status next year? I had some health issues and had to stop flying for a few months this year and it really killed my chances of reaching Gold for next year. And I will only be making 8 more trips for the remainder of the year (2 of them being international). Would booking first/business class for the remainder of the year help me get close? I’m aware there’s no CCs to help this except maybe the United club infinite card. I often fly between two busy United hubs and I really need that Group 1 boarding group perk and I plan on doing more international trips next year and would really like star alliance gold status as it’s so helpful.

PQF is 5 and PQP is 1710 (not even close I know and will prob get downvoted cuz of this)

I’m fairly new to fan fiction and reading Manacled was my entry point and nothing else really scratched the itch until i read The Changeling which completely changed my perspective on fanfic. It was incredibly written and I was extremely invested and sad it isn’t canon. I am now reading Lionheart and just learned it might never be completed which makes me sad. One of the best things I’ve read in a very long time. I’m greedy and I need more well written fanfics that are more like novels. Detraquee and the Alexander Quick series (but idk about non canon characters 😬) are next on my list and I recently read Better Off Forgotten (which was a good read). I’m okay with any ship (altho I prefer dramione and generally don’t like Harry/hermione) and I don’t care if it’s really toxic and explicit or if it’s purely PG. I just want high quality, well written recs! Sorry if this is asked a lot but I looked through all the posts on Reddit (how I found the changeling and Lionheart) but I’m wondering if I’m missing any. Just want to make sure I can download all the recs before they possibly get deleted!

I have lot of short-lived hyperfixations with food and hobbies as many with ADHD do but the one that persists is my appearance. I’m not sure if it’s related to ADHD and maybe I’m just very vain but it seems to subvert my ADHD completely for some reason. I’m always very hyper focused on how I walk, talk, act, and look. It helps with things like hygiene and taking care of my body and skin but my mind is very consumed by it. I’ve been like this since I was 15 when I realized that people treated me so well when I was finally deemed “not weird”. All of a sudden, people didn’t mind my quirks and they cared about what I thought about them instead of the other way around. It felt powerful honestly and I clung on to that. As a kid I was always considered weird by my peers and then at the beginning of puberty, quite awkward and ugly thus bullied a bit. So it was a huge positive change and I’ve been really hyperfixated ever since. It’s definitely gotten worse since I hit 30 and now I’m spending more time and money trying to maintain my appearance. It’s exhausting at times but I can’t help it and I guess the pay off seems worth it. I feel terrified to stop. Does any other woman struggle with this?

FYI I do have OCD as well so it probably contributes to this