Idk what to do anymore F21( me) and M24 (bf)
Hello, so me 21F and my bf 23M been together for almost two years, and while being together i had lack of trust in him but it wasn't his fault, i just have a really really hard time trusting people especially if i wanna open up and have something that is going to last. After a lot of months i could trust him and i would trust his words right away because i always thought that trust in a relationship is one of the most important things, but recently he broke my trust doing something i truly hate and we talked about it too, i forgave him because it wasn't cheating or something that deep, but after that happened i have problems trusting him fully again. Even at the start of the relationship and after months i always thought about him cheating, texting other girls and doing everything he could do to hurt me and us, he didn't obviously, but now those thoughts came back like im just always worried about him doing something wrong like cheating, even when he tells me goodnight cause he has work early in the morning, even if he wouldnt. I guess its because im really scared to lose him and i wouldn't want that to happen in a million years. I know that for sure its me and im the problem since i have all these weird thoughts but i dont know what to do, i feel like i trust him honestly and im grateful that i can always get the reassurance that i need, but i know that with time and if i need it kinda often, it becomes annoying. I wrote this post because i wanted to talk to someone not close to me and have few feedbacks and even if i already know the answer, its reassuring reading it from other people and id appreciate to know your thoughts on this. Would there be something that could help my thoughts slow down a bit cause in these last few days i cried most of the time thinking he was cheating while he was online and replying to me a little later and other things and idk what to do and wanted to ask about your opinion and what can i do to feel better without leaving?