I need help and I don’t know where to go to
I’m turning 18 this year, and Im a girl. I need to get away from my family because they’re genuinely going to ruin me. They’re not physically abusive or anything they’re just crushing to exist around, these people who don’t see me as a person but even more than that it’s my psychopathic brother who keeps ending the lives of the cats around the area after he’s done with the ones in the house. I just need to get away, because as long as I keep around him I’m going to be the only one who knows and I’m so scared, I don’t want to do this anymore. I’ve spent my whole literal life trying to keep these cats alive with no avail. I can’t fucking do anything the best I can do is run because my family keeps using me as an excuse to keep cats at home but I keep begging to just give them away to another family. And Iccant tell why I want to give them away because then what if he does something to the cat, or what if he moves on to our dog? I’m so scared. I really am . I thought my parents would let me move into a hostel (it’s like a dorm here in India) but they’re changing their mind at the last moment. I can’t get help from the police being an adult is useless because my dad’s brother is rich and I need to listen to them to some extent or else my dad might go suicidal and if he does no one will pay for my brother’s and I’s college. I don’t know what to do. I just want to run. I’m tired. But they’re not letting me join the hostel because apparently they care about my safety. Like they haven’t ignored me for majority of my growing years which has led me to have a multitude of health problems they wont even take me to the doctor for. O need to run far away I hate these idiotic and stupid idea that just because the owner of a hostel is Muslim it’s automatically unsafe. It’s so fucking stupid, I’m so tired. I can’t believe these insecure losers are the ones making me feel this way, the same losers who look up “how to do AI influencer models”. It’s not fair that just because I’m a child I don’t get to be safe, or even feel unsafe
I just wanted to really “live”, I think if I have to wait more years to do that,, I wont be able to take it. I’m scared constantly, and then I have to be called talentless and over dramatic for never having done anything with my life