First Vacation Being Separated
This week is my first vacation week being separated. Some emotional ups and downs as every May we take a week to get out of the city and take in some nature, hiking and bird watching. I didn't let this change stop me and I got out there on my own. Well, a few mornings out with a friend and then a couple of nights away on my own.
The ups was being on the road before 6 AM, after getting up shortly after 5. This never happened doing this with her. There was no pee stops. No "back seat driving". I brought 10 metal cds like Venom, Arch Enemy, L7, Lamb of God to listen to as I drove. Stuff she'd never approve of. She likes hair metal and ballads. My hikes were my speed and as far as I wanted to go. I could spend all the time I wanted on photographing a bird without the huffing and puffing behind me about hurrying up.
The downs. Eating out alone. I did miss the company during the slow periods. And I didn't like the sadness and anxiety that developed as I drove home because even though we're being amicable while living under the same roof, the house doesn't feel like a home, and I don't look forward to coming home to my wife... just my cats.
Not expecting replies. Just venting good and bad about the life changes. I think the Christmas vacation week will be the difficult one because this is my first time having the Christmas week off in 27 years at my job (union shop, seniority reasons) and she automatically gets Christmas off. Wild how excited she was about me getting this week off and then 3 weeks later she wants to officially separate. I'm hoping she flies home to see family.