Hi Reddit
My bf broke up with me a month back due to my mistake involving another guy. No it’s not related to flirting, it’ll be a long story if I sit and give out the context.
So he broke up with me and ever since that day i have only been trying to get him back because i genuinely love him, we were in a relationship for 1.5 years and he’s basically my first in a lot of things, he understood me made me laugh, we are LDR but things were always amazing between us. Yes like all couples we had our ups and downs because we’re young and we’ve been through a lot but we never left eachothers sides and i actually still think he’s the one for me no matter how many fights we’ve gone through or anything.
He broke up with me on 30th of March, I tried to win him back for 20 whole days but these were his texts, that he wants to move on, and wants me to move on as well, i used to see him follow a bunch of girls too which he knew didn’t sit well with me during these 20 days, and i used to cry and ask him why? He’d say we’re broken up and he doesn’t wanna be with me he’s sure and used to ask me to move on as well. After this i stopped contacting him I didn’t contact him for a week, in this week i tried my best to distract myself though I couldn’t because i really love him i used to keep talking to my friends about him, stalk his socials and feel bad, so one day in this week, i followed and unblocked the guys that he made me block too when we were in a relationship. I now realise it was wrong, i did it out of anger and i genuinely thought he doesn’t want me back which is why i did it.
Fast forward to the week end, I realised I shouldn’t let him go because we promised eachother so many things and I genuinely didn’t want to let go of him because I actually love him a lot, I love him so much so I contacted him back, he was still adamant that he felt disrespected about what I did in the past due to which he broke up but I kept trying day and night, I’d email him pdfs paragraphs, send him playlists day and night since I’m blocked from everywhere, try to get in contact with him, and finally he decided he wants to see how things go again, day before yesterday to which I was very grateful.
However yesterday, he found out I followed those guys including the ones I unblocked, and, said he doesn’t want to be with me and felt hurt to which I tried to explain to him that in that week, one day I tried to move on and I’m sorry I did that. But he’s adamant he’s saying if I wanted another chance I wouldn’t have done this, I’m playing with him and he’s blocked me and again he’s said he doesn’t want to do anything with me, he’s saying if I loved him and really wanted him I wouldn’t have unblocked those guys after making the mistake I made because of which he broke up and that if I regretted it and I loved him I wouldn’t have done it, and I’m sorry I did.
How do I make him understand anything, he’s hurt, please help me Reddit