Why can’t I let myself be upset?
I just want to say these are my feelings to me personally. I definitely don’t feel this way about other people’s trauma and absolutely never would. And I’m not really looking for answers. I know the only answer is therapy really.
How can I let myself feel the emotions from this and not shut them down? Everytime something reminds me of what happened or him I shut down anything that I’m feeling. I feel like it wasn’t that bad so I don’t deserve to be upset about it. I feel so over dramatic everytime something upsets me about it. I don’t understand why I feel ashamed for being upset about it.
The only thing I can feel about it is overwhelming anxiety. My brain will not let me cry or empathize with me on it. If it was anyone else I would be absolutely pissed but I can’t be for myself. I know what happened was bad. I just can’t get myself to feel that way for me. It just happened in February so maybe I just have to give myself more time.
Thank you for reading my little rant 💕