I just want to move through this as efficiently and effortlessly as possible. However I remained faced with the obstacles. I am day dreaming consistently of the day when the storm steadies and comes to a halt. I desperately need this to materialize before the circumstances completely crush me. I really hope if I dream of it enough it will be good cause for manifestation. I’m crying out to the universe to please hear my voice and move me accordingly. Not everything happens overnight, but boy do I wish it did. I’m really guessing my ability to live another day in this reality that I’ve landed myself in. It’s beating me down it’s crushing me. I need a breath, a prayer, a moment, some peace, or maybe even a miracle. I can’t keep moving through this while bleeding everywhere. I need change. I need growth. I need happiness. Give me the blueprint, the map, the key, anything really. Where do I go? Where do I start? My questions are as endless as my deep seated pain. I hope you hear me this time, and I hope you listen. I’m really close to just throwing in the towel.
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Let me hold you for awhile. Maybe if I hold on tight enough I could piece you back together. Maybe it will soften all those tears you cry.
I could whisper it’s okay and dry your eyes.
You don’t have to tell me why.
All I ask is be a good boy tell no lies.
I’ll hold the space while you and I witness how time flies.
Come here little daddy, I can show you butterflies.
Have you remembered all that you are?
Stand up, baby just try again.
I’ll keep the silence while I hold your hand. I like how you’re soft and gentle. You are one hell of a man. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. I’ve got you baby just hang on tight. I’m just along for the ride.

Would you come in, sit on my bed?
Would it be okay if I slipped into something more comfortable?
I’d slowly remove my clothes after a long day but I wouldn’t mind if you didn’t look away just watch as I pull my pants down to my ankles. I’m not shy so I would recommend you just relax and let me lead the way I could lay beside you, if you wanted. I’m here in nothing but my lace set. Would you mind if I curled up in the small of your arm? I wouldn’t mind if your hand got curious and wanted to explore better yet I encourage it. Trace my curves with your finger tips and let me know if what you find excites you. I’d like to feel every bit of your excitement pressed up against me. Bring me a bit of heat I could use the warmth of your passion right about now. Don’t let me go cold, darling.
I’m going to look for salamanders by the stream, want to come with? Might even find a frog if we’re lucky. 😌🦎🐸
I guess I’m just hurt. I miss you. I’m mad I don’t have the clarity, the understanding, and I’m just wondering if I really deserved all that? Maybe…