Syd Towle and other Creators
I don’t know if I should even be writing this here, but I lost my mom to this disease in November and Syd continues to show up on my TikTok FYP. I know she is remaining positive, so I try hard not to comment on her posts, but I guess I’m looking for others who have lost a loved one to cholangiocarcinoma who might understand how I feel.
I don’t really like seeing her content, or other creators content, but I can’t look away. The way social media algorithms work, they just keep pushing me more and more of this content, but all it does is make me relive the end of my mom’s life. It makes me so sad, and then I read the comments and there are so many people who have no idea what they’re talking about and it makes me so mad.
I know I’m still in the anger side of grief, but I just can’t stop. My mom basically had me make all of her medical decisions for her after she was diagnosed because she was paralyzed by indecision and I’ve spent months wondering if I made the wrong decisions and if she’d still be here if I’d made different ones.
Anyway, I’m just trauma dumping and not wanting to comment anything negative or speculate on her videos, but her most recent content has just left me in tears.