u/Fearless_PineaplleOG

mine best freind just told me she canot be mine freind anymore cause off the suicide attempt she was mine only freind irl i feel crushed and dead inside i never have freinds for long they always leave

he said that "its nice too here from people who are actually speaking and not just text on a screen " it really hurt mine feelings cause i rely on aac and text too speak :(

am i stupid and what does this mean if mine stanford binet iq test from when i was 14 says I have an verbal iq off 54 and a nonverbal iq off 49?

can it change alot since then im am 25 now?

would it be by alot if it changed?

im am also autistic level 2/3 and i have learning disabilitys and am semispeaking

mine freind took me too train station

she left me there

i tryed too go home but i got lost on way home

i am lost

i am scared

i keep freezing up and get stuck

i feel scared

i not know what too do

i tryed bus but i got lost in middle off nowhere

i am going too cry and meltdown

help

i attempted suicide last night and the night before and i felt really bad today even though I gotted too hamg out with freind and watch trains

i have been feeling really bad alot lately and have

and i just not want too be autistic

i just want too be normal and not autistic

im am worry that i will try again

im am sorry

im am so scared oft being homeless even though Im am housed and family is pay for it i feel traumatized from almost be homeless and im am constantly fearung it

im am really struggling alot

trains are the only thing thats keep me living

im am sorry for attempt and feelung the way im am

sorry if thise is tmi

please if they messege you with mine old account please do not follow there scam please they are a bad person