u/Fearless-Beyond-6357

Hello mga titas! Question lang po, I have a breast mass and was recently checked, so far okay naman yung result and for monitoring sha. Minsan sumasakit sha which I believe is hormonal. Kaso everytime na may sumasakit sakin, I begin to spiral and mati-trigger nanaman health anxiety ko kahit 2 days ago lang ako nag paultrasound 😓

So kaka search ko, I came across some articles about evening primrose oil for breast pain, I took it for 3 days and grabe sakit ng ulo ko kagabi, so I’m planning to stop it na. I know saglit palang naman but I’m kinda worried it might affect me lalo na breast mass ko kasi tinigil ko? Enlighten me please 🫠

I’m 30F btw no kids yet.

Sorry dito ko napunta, some subs are taking this down 😕

Okay so, di ko alam pano sisimulan pero here goes nothing.

I developed this health anxiety kakanuod ko sa tiktok and shempre kakabasa kung saan saan about breast c\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*. It made me do ultrasound, check ups, to the point na I had 3 consultations in a day just to ease my mind. I’m 30F btw.

I had a couple of results and ang latest result ko is birads 3 (probably benign) pinabasa ko sa mga doctor yung characteristics nung nakita na mass and maganda naman daw, or pointing to benign yun hitsura. Akala ko magiging okay na ako, di ko napapansin, I’m developing this fear and stress stronger each day.

May mga araw na ayaw kong tumayo sa kama, ayaw kong makipagusap kahit kanino, ayokong makipagchat, gusto ko lang mag research ng mag research. Gusto kong mawala yung mass before my next follow up ultrasound, gusto ko maging healthy yung breast ko. I want to take control of everything. I’m Catholic and sobrang grabe pagdadasal ko everyday to take away my worries and anxiety. And above all, let my results be normal and not c\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*\\\*.

I had a recent talk with my mom earlier kasi nagjoke ako, sabi ko baka malapit na ako mag menopause, kasi ang init ng ulo ko, lagi ko napapagalitan pamangkin ko :( sabi ng Nanay ko, “anak bigyan mo naman ako ng apo kahit isa lang” and I felt really sad kasi di lang ito yung isang beses na sinabi nya sakin to, in my case naman, sabi ko “nay, di ko nga maayos yung utak ko at yung sarili ko, mag dadagdag pa ako?” Ang painful para sabihin sakin non kasi gusto ko din naman magkaron ng sariling pamilya, kasi sa estado ng pagiisip ko, parang magiging pabigat lang ako sa magiging asawa at anak ko. Hay ang hirap.

Hindi ako ganito, sobrang tapang kong tao. Minsan naiisip ko nga baka may nange-evil eye sakin.

Anyway, ang dami ko nang minessage na mga kagaya kong girls na may ganito din like may nakitang mass or cyst sa breast nila, naiinggiy ako sakanila kasi super chill lang sila, at di nag o-overthink. Sana ganun din ako :(

I just need to vent this out, or even find some fellow women who are currently in this horrible loop.

I recently found out I have breast mass and my doctors and radiologist seems to be relaxed everytime I have a check up. Now, what I do all day was just to google and even read a lot of forums about it here in reddit or in facebook. My next scan is on June (3rd month follow up) and I just want to pull the days and get it done already. My health anxiety is so bad right now that its making me think of the worst scenarios. I cant stop touching my breasts, I cant stop thinking about it. I’m afraid I might manifest this as it already messed up my mens last April. I keep searching on some things that I can do to prevent the disease I’m dreading. I’m so afraid of it.

Now, I’m trying to drink green tea everyday, exercise, vitamins, being hopeful that I may get rid of it. Or at least let it stay behave.

Peace of mind is really expensive.

I just need to vent this out, or even find some fellow women who are currently in this horrible loop.

I recently found out I have breast mass and my doctors and radiologist seems to be relaxed everytime I have a check up. Now, what I do all day was just to google and even read a lot of forums about it here in reddit or in facebook. My next scan is on June (3rd month follow up) and I just want to pull the days and get it done already. My health anxiety is so bad right now that its making me think of the worst scenarios. I cant stop touching my breasts, I cant stop thinking about it. I’m afraid I might manifest this as it already messed up my mens last April. I keep searching on some things that I can do to prevent the disease I’m dreading. I’m so afraid of it.

Now, I’m trying to drink green tea everyday, exercise, vitamins, being hopeful that I may get rid of it. Or at least let it stay behave.

Peace of mind is really expensive.