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6 years ago i (24F) became very very ill with a disease called gullian barre syndrome, the short story about the illness is that my immune system made a mistake and attacked my nervesystem so i became paralyzed and couldnt breath, eat or go to the bathroom by myself. i had a very turbulent hospital experience, and sadly had to come across many bad doctors and nurses, where one of them did something against my will, which is against the law, becuase i was 18 back then, and that means im an adult (in my country). i am the first person in my age group to have the illness in my country, so to seek help for my illness, has been very very difficult.

after 2 months of that nightmare which made me violently depressed and generally mentally very very ill, i was out of the hospital and i tried to live a normal life but i was a completely new person. i went to a therapist, had psychiatric help, medicin (150mg sertraline, which im still on) and now i dont go to therapy anymore and still take my meds everyday. but i still struggle ALOT with my mental health and am having breakdowns where i cant see straight, and its like my system doesnt align with me anymore and i struggle to keep my head over the water.

im at my wits end with what to do now, i talked with my mom on what to do next, she has been my rock since day one and went to all my appointments with me, but we are both struggling to see what to do.

i got diagnosed depression, ptsd and struggle with trauma and am general a little all over the place in my feelings, nervesystem and body overall. i got tested for ADHD too and it showed many signs that i have that too, but since i am on alot of medicin, they want to wait to diagnose that.

sorry for the long post, but this is the short story.

does any of you have any experience or tips or anything to share?

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so what the title says. i (24F) have been seeing this guy (21m) for almost 3 weeks, a very short amount of time, i know, but things were going very very good and i had a good feeling about him.

well then a couple nights ago i was out drinking with two friends and got very messy drunk.. i didnt do anything serious but he endes up joining me and he followed me home. at the end of the night, before he left i ended up crying for some reason (cant remember but think it might have been about him leaving because he couldnt stay overnight as he usually do (not only for sex, but we have spent loads of time together these last couple weeks) well then the next day (yesterday) i was out all day for family stuff, and so was he. i had no signal where i was, but when i got a little i checked and saw that he hadnt responded or anything. i started freaking out and thinking that i had said something crazy to him when i was drunk… so i texted him throughout the day, no answer, so it ended up being a good amount of texts.. very embarassing, as i am NOT like that at all. he ended up answering late and said he had been out all day with his family and thats why he didnt respond, he also said that he doesnt know what to say (about the ton of texts) but that he likes me but doesnt really know what to say or do, i then sent two texts today saying sorry and that it is not an representation of who i am, and that i would hate to have ruined everything bc of a human mistake, this text i just sent, so idk if or when i will hear from him, but i had to get it off my chest, bc im so so so sad and having the worst feeling in my stomach. i really enjoy my time with him, and i saw a lot of potential, but maybe i ruined everything