u/Fair-Let2521

Warm blue berry muffin with "taste" cheese and a glass of cold milk

White rice

Onions

Garlic powder

Black pepper

Dark soysauce

Ketchup

Al purpose seasoning

Spring onions

Sardines (in oil).

I was angry at myself today 😒

I request a transfer at work 5 months ago and my manger did say yes but after that they kept dogging me. So I just stayed there quietly growing more discontent as the week go on. Today I said enough is enough and finally went to the general manager. He said he look into it for me.

And yes I love eating with my spoon! ^^

I found a helicopter then a convoy soon after.

The sniper i had is VS-86 with a scope and improvised suppressor and a mag (ammo 5). While I just found the VSD, no mag and no scope.

Made a few post over the few days and I have to say, the amount of support I feel form this community is healing months of negative feelings ive built up. Im happy I found this place, sharing what I cook and how ive truly felt.

Thank you to all would said something till today even if its a suggestion to how I can eat better. I appreciate that aswel and I did listen 🎶

Hii I'm Jay

Its been a 3 months now since ive been sober...

I haven't thought about her much until today

She said hi again

I looked at her with a bit of pitty ..sadness maybe

As if I was i was looking at myself

She never did anything wrong inherently but how I treated her was what made me feel guilty.

She was sweat and kind at times, she was always there whenever I felt down.

When bored she would give me a smile I used to have as a child. Her name.. i feel uncomfortable to say it sometimes.

When I do, I make jokes and jabs at her. Blaming her for good things?

Today she said hi again, she put lipstick on this time.

Something she never usually wear, she was already beautiful without makeup but something about her.. trying to impress me (my ego thinking it was always about me) trying to impress me was kinda seductive.

So I held her once more, I thought about all the things I could do and could've done.

Thankfully she didnt whisper my name, like she always does.. softly then LOAD enough so that i remember.

This is a photo of the first time making steak

Salt and pepper on steak for "seasoning"

Creamy pepper corn sauce.

I feel like I shared enough today, heart feels heavy

Its been a 3 months now since ive been sober...

I haven't thought about her much until today

She said hi again

I looked at her with a bit of pitty ..sadness maybe

As if I was i was looking at myself

She never did anything wrong inherently but how I treated her was what made me feel guilty. She was sweat and kind at times, she was always there whenever I felt down. Bored she would give me a smile I used to have as a child. Her name.. i feel uncomfortable to say it sometimes. When I do, I make jokes and jabs at her. Blaming her for good things?

Today she said hi again, she put lipstick on this time. Something she never usually wear, she was already beautiful without makeup but something about her.. trying to impress me (my ego thinking it was always about me) trying to impress me was kinda seductive. So I held her once more, I thought about all the things I could do and could've done. Thankfully she didnt whisper my name, like she always does.. softly then LOAD enough so that i remember.

Hi.. Im Jay.

This is arguably the best wrap I have personally made. Jucy and delicious

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Marinated steak with 5 spices and sause

○Dark soysauce

○Paprika

○Toasted pepper corn powder

○Goya all purpose

○Garlic powder

Marinated for 2 days then frozen for 3.

Thaw the steaks (cook it when its chilly)

Then dry both side with a cloth or towel

Get the cast iron skillet to a smoking hot temp. Reduce heat to medium add a light amount of olive oil to the pan cover the base. Add steak after 15 seconds. Sire on both side for 30 seconds twice.

On the last sirre add:

Olive oil butter, thyme and green scotch bonnett pepper. Base your steak for 20 seconds then remove from pan to air fryer at 164° for for less than 2 min.

Let rest for 10 mins.

Sauce

I made this up on the go🚶‍♂️

After making the steak, you'll use said pan steak fond to make the sauce.

Saute onion in the pan then remove and add ketchup to cook on medium to low heat to cook for 2mins. Add white rum to pan and olive slices. Cook for 3 mins on low heat. Add chilli sauce optional if you weak 😑😂 then abit of dark soysauce.

(Sauce should taste strong in nature and a tat salty. Don't add salt in any of these step.)

**Inspire by my jallof rice recipe

Vegetables and Wrap

Wheat wrap

Thinly sliced; onions, sauteed onions, bell peppers, scotch bonnett green pepper spring onions

Grated seasonal carrot

Ive been on 4 dates in the last 3.5 years.

Ive dated men, women, trans etc...

Dating isnt easy as it seems ig. I spend most of that energy on trying to find a fwb for the last 2 years. Ive found 2 and half. Half being only why there in town we meet.

Its all relationships heavily focused on the benefits aspects and truthfully im tired. I want real connection!

Someone suggested more vegetables

I bite my Nails, i wish I didnt know why..

I bite my Nails, ive tried stopping

I bite my Nails, it bleeds when I bite too much

I bite, I bite, ive bitten, i will bite.. more

Ive seen shootings, ive been near domestic abuse, ive been abused. I bite my Nails.

Note: Biting of finger nails are signs of experiencing anxiety.

Sardines are call Jalapeño flavored

I had/have two best friends back home in my country but they dont call or text.

I've move 2.5 years ago and everytime I find myself calling and texting them. I never felt like it was weird until I left my current friendship here in America. Now I feel lonely. I mean I still do have my family and maybe I am looking for this fulfillment somewhere else (sex) but I do try to be better and look for new ways of finding friends

Alot of people dont like seeing the fish head on.

Going to bed. Played dayz for 5 hours today. Read some manwha in-between and tmr ill see a doctor for smt separate. Is it possible to make friends from just sharing your cooking?

Jamaica 🇯🇲, I made Ackee patties

Chuckeye steak, rice and beans, fried egg, onions sauteed, roasted red bell peppers and Chinese green peppers for garnish

Steak medium rare.

I made this 10:50 pm last night. Was delicious

Thanks for reading