u/Extra_Problem2273

Did anyone else get their period young? I was sexually abused from probably toddler ( first memory i was 4) years til I was 8 and started my period at 9. I also struggleed with masturbation at a young age ( kinda feels gross). I have always been kind of embarrassed about it. Still at 33, mainly because girls around me thought it was " weird" or I always got the reaction " wow, that's young, really?!" From teen friends. I hid it from my dad because I barely knew him at the time. And didn't understand it at first. started wearing bras at 10. Never met anyone else who got me.

My dad used to verbally abuse me and emotionally neglect me alot. Called me names often and voiced how he regretted taking me in. Despite of me being sexually abused by his family. Well one thing stuck with me and still has effects on me. Him calling me a "heifer" i wasnt "fat like a cow" but I struggle with my weight still at 33. I used to think it was from being forced to eat large amounts of food just to make me ill "abuse" but now that my dad is dead I have all this anger. And want an apology. I know its too late. But anyways. Venting i guess.