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My mom told me to go kill myself just because i wanted to take a break

So ive been struggling with high functioning depression for a while now, maybe 2-3 years and ive told no one, and the place where i live doesnt get access to therapy easily

And my family have been struggling from financial problems since i was born, so ive always blamed myself. id have to lie to the debt collectors for my parents often, and id have to work at my dad's restaurant everyday recently because theyre short staffed, id sleep for only 4 hours on school days maybe even less because I was also juggling music to eventually pay off their debt or at least help them somehow

But today i asked to take a break and she told me to

"Go kill yourself if you don't wanna help"

"Im done with you, youre not my kid anymore"

And just like that in starting to consider suicide

Ive alway been afraid of dying but maybe im not

Any thoughts?

Every where i go on reddit id see people slandering megumi bro

Like i mean yes hes not my favourite character but give my boy some respect damn

Like why cant we all just live in peace without slander dawg💔✌️

I’ve been dealing with a lot of long-term symptoms and I’m trying to understand what’s going on with me.

For about 2–3 years I’ve been experiencing things like:

low motivation

not enjoying things I used to like

struggling to get out of bed

weight loss / appetite changes

feeling tired and sluggish

keeping myself busy all the time

feeling like I’ve forgotten what “normal” feels like

I’ve been researching and found that these can overlap with depressive conditions, but I don’t have access to a psychiatrist where I live.

I’m not looking for a diagnosis, but I want to understand how serious this might be and what kind of impact it can have if it continues long-term.

Has anyone experienced something similar?

So ive been researching and i found out i have most of the symptoms like

Lost of motivation

Not feeling pleasure from things i used to love

Not wanting to get out of bed

Weight loss

Always keeping myself busy

Feeling sluggish, tired

Forgetting what "Normal" feels like

...

And ive probably been like this for at least 2-3 years

I cant get a diagnosis either because theres rarely any psychiatrist in my country and i also wanna know what harm it could do