I cannot take this anymore.
I'm a student, currently in uni year 1.
I will say, I am really different from the average person in SG. Throughout the years interacting with other Gen Zs of my batch (born between 2002 to 2006), all I can say is, god forbid people have hobbies.
I say my hobby and they don't grow curious. But if it's something relatable, they go on and on about it with other people. It's also not just hobbies, but behaviour and attitude. If an individual says something unique, they scurry away. If an individual wants to criticize, acts not-as-per-expected from the average Singaporean, they scurry away. What this shows is people who are different are looked at less while those who are factory-produced replicas are always given social opportunities.
Since I was young, I was always out of the norm and got bullied so many times, including in NS.
I cannot tahan this country. I've been suffering from severe social isolation it is suffocating. My social skills are so bad it is insane to find anyone who is willing to put up with my differences from the norm. I find it so difficult to talk to people while trying to hook them to the conversation, just because they don't find me relatable.
I am not going to be a replica of everyone in SG.
I had goals to help SG improve such as via public health policy, but I am trying to resist losing that motivation.
If people don't want to help me, then why the hell should I serve to improve this country?
I love being innovative, but this country suffocates that kind of characteristic in me.