TL;DR i got into UBC and mcgill. I love UBC, but dont wanna be in my brothers shadow(he already went and goes there). McGill, im not sure if ill like from what ive seen it offers. What do i choose.
Im a grade 12 ontario student who's been admitted to both:
- UBC sauder BUC's (business and computer science) program,
- McGill Comp sci program
Off the bat i'd much rather go to UBC. It has a beautiful campus, amazing community, its mountainous, outdoorsy, has fantastic asian culture (im half chinese), and its in the west coast so i know the job market will probably be a little bit better. Ik if i go to UBC ill literally love it there. Ive lived in vancouver before and everything that city offers screams my name.
McGilll on the other hand is very will integrated into a multicultural City that is always alive. It has gothic/european influence, great skiing, great community, and a great clubbing scene. But with all that being said, i cant say it screams my name. i've just never been around anything remotely close to what mcgill offers to know if id like it or not.
Now this probably sounds like a no brainer. GO ubc, better program, and i already like what they have to offer. And i know what im gonna say next sounds petty and shallow.
But i simply do not want to go to UBC because my brother has already done 4 years there (doing his 5th next year). I have 2 older brothers, and for the entirety of my life it has felt like ive been walking in their shadows. I feel like no parts of my personality nor who i am is unique. And i love my brothers to death, their amazing, theyve always been amazing. But for once i want to be on my own, in my own world. And ik im pretty much complaining about nothing. And its probably not this serious. But this feeling is something thats bugged me my whole life.
UBC was a heavy part of what shaped my brother into becoming who he is today, and i know im similar enough to him, where if i go to UBC, ill just become a carbon copy of him.
A part of me feels like if i dont explore the unknown, which is what mcgill is for me, ill never really grow into an independant adult.
Who knows maybe ill love mcgill, but i just know, if i go to UBC, ill consciously love UBC but subconciously feel like im still under my brothers shadow.
I REALLY want to go UBC, but i just feel like i can't.
I know im really complaining about nothing serious, but i need some advice here. What do i do?