It is 3am in my part of the world and I am awake crying because I feel hurt getting rejected from my daughter.
That's not it. I am also feeling bad about being envious of my husband who is both a perfect dad and husband.
My husband has always been a great dad and has always split parenting chores. Actually, he does a lot more than I do. I often see women complaining on different subs on how dads don't do enough - he is is the opposite of that. He is happy to do everything! I love him and have been happily married for 14 years now.
I had a baby 6 weeks ago. During the last phase of pregnancy, I had some issues and wasn't able to spend active time with my daughter and now that I am finally feeling better, I have realised that she now prefers her dad. We used to co sleep and she always preferred me but now she only wants to co sleep with her dad only. She gives him lots of cuddles and says 'I love you, dad' several times. I don't get any love you, mummy. 🥺
She goes to childcare full time and my husband does drop off and pick ups. He also does bath time - basically I feel that he has taken over all chores which has resulted in her being so close to her.
When I brought it up with my husband, he was shocked and sad that I was blaming him for being a good dad and feeling jealous. His dad abandoned him when he was little so he is doing everything he can to be an ideal dad. And he is. So, I now feel double bad because of this.
What do I do? Strangers on the internet, please help me! I am trying to cry myself to sleep.
We both work full time but I am currently on leave.