This started this year in January, i asked this girl to be my valentine and she said yes and i guess we went on a date. but i then got her some flowers and asked her on a offical date and she said that "im a nice guy, but it wont work out" and I kinda imagined doing a lot of stuff with her like going on picnics/ listening to music together and just in general spending time with her. She was my first valentine and I really got scared asking her out but i still did it because i didnt want to regret it. when she said yes i was really happy and for the first time in my life i felt like I could be happy. I guess i went a bit overboard imagining my life with her. But i truly thought she liked me. But now even after 2 months i still think of her many time thoughout my day, and everytime i do I feel so weak and useless. I want to talk and spend more time with her even though she made it clear that she doesnt want to, I just feel so pathetic.
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Ive never felt connected or loved since i was a child, even by my parents. Recently i really liked this girl but she didnt feel the same way about me. and I just feel like i want to be alone. Like alone alone, like move into the rural area and just live by self.
Tbh i just dont like people and I like every few months I have to change my environment, Like i change jobs move houses and just start everything from new. I just need constant change and i dont feel like i can ever connected to people. If i do like somebody i make them the center of eveything and i love them so much and they never feel the same about me. I just really hate people and how surface relationships are . I just plan to save a bit of money and move to Alaska and live a few years byself and just really isolate my self, like no tv or social media. I hopped off of social media for a few weeks and i have never felt better.
Has anybody ever done this or know somebody who has? I just need some different perspectives.