u/ExaminationOld8251

she is just so rude to me sometimes (like calling me incompetent on a daily, always giving me dirty looks,and always cursing me out after every minor inconvenience), for context she's older, and i just always feel like i put in so much effort to our relationship and she just NEVER reciprocates it. i'm always asking about her day, her life, and i don't even think she knows my favorite color. i just truly care about her so much and she is literally my best friend but i don't think she even cares that much about me. what the hell do i do

i don't know why i feel this way. i'm normally a very idgaf if i'm left out, or even just about anything in general. but when it comes to my friends, i feel like im constantly always the one texting first, calling first, asking to hangout first, and just in general i put in way more effort than i gets back. i've tried to talk to them about it, but all they say is just "that's the way i am" i know im overthinking this but i don't know how to stop feeling this way?