Advice on my next/last move with my SP
Hey everyone. So I posted here about 3 weeks ago that I had an ex I was trying to manifest. She had been hovering my socials for about 2 months, reposting my stuff, watching stories, liking my reels, keeping me in a painful loop of "she misses me, she wants me back or does she?" So I did a hard step of removing her off my socials, and that really helped me focus on myself and my life. I still visualize, affirm, all that good stuff. I affirm for other things too, not just her, but she's in the equation. Life has been getting better post our separation and I'm feeling more confident overall. However, I'd be lying to myself if I said I still did not desire her back.
Today I saw what I guess you could call, "movement." She DM's me on Instagram, but its a breadcrumb---not even a full one, a breadcrumb of a breadcrumb. It was something so small, so insignificant. This is after 3 weeks of silence. I know I deserve better, I deserve more than this, and honestly, I reacted internally, which I know isn't right. I got angry. The whole idea of the message made me angry that she still would string me along like this after removing her off socials. My finger hovered over the block button for a bit, but I was scared to go ahead with it. It felt like she had indifference about me, that she didn't even notice my removing of her as a follower and unfollowing. Which truth be told, I did it for myself because I know i'm worth more than just a breadcrumb. It was a 2 year relationship. I was surprised and angry to say the least.
Now, she has an item that belongs to me, its of sentimental value and she asked a favor to hang on to it for a couple of weeks, and I obliged. That was over a month ago.
I am thinking to ask for it now, that enough time has passed, and when we meet in person, just tell her that I am closing the chapter on us, and if she has anything to say about us, past, present or future, say it now otherwise its been nice knowing you, good luck to you and no hard feelings of course.
What do you all think about this? I cannot stay in the painful loop of having her constantly contact me with meaningless bullshit and continuing to deflect from talking about our breakup. She is what you'd call, avoidant. Now I also have stopped describing her as that in my head, because I want to manifest the version of her that isn't, which I know is possible. So. for the sake of this post, I am using that term but I want it to be clear, I have been affirming for the version of her that isn't, who loves me and wants me back.
I still want her back in my life, I still care for her, but I'm not sure how to properly move on in a healthy way. And perhaps detach even if she still circles back with breadcrumbs while avoiding our breakup and past all the time.
Is this a step worth taking with her? Am I supposed to ignore this and continue "persisting?" For the record, I am quickly reaching a state where I am possibly ok with losing her forever. Its not my favorite place, and I'm probably not 100% there, but today definitely increased those odds because of her unwillingness to talk about us. I'd say I'm in the 60-70% range, I lose her and thats ok, I will be fine. We'll see how the week pans out, but I'm kind of wrestling with this decision---it feels like I may be trying to force something that still could be playing out in my favor. But if I am setting respectful boundaries and showing her I'm moving on, isn't that also healthy and attractive? Would love opinions. Thanks
EDIT: And for context, it was a 2 year relationship, we've been almost 3 months broken up with limited no contact, and I have been on my manifestation journey (not perfectly but as best I can) for the last month or so.