u/Euphoric-Pomelo957

I am 20yo, my sister which I am very close to, is really turning beautiful. I can't stop having dirty thought about her... I know it is bad, how you can stop thinking about it. She has very large butt, shaped like the girl known as cutegeekie but even bigger. Every short is turning like a thong like short by moment, she always try to out it back. But it's really hard to not have dirty thought next to her. And I can't control what's between my legs and from getting an hard on...

I’m a 30-year-old guy. I was in a long relationship for more than 7 years, along with a few shorter ones after that. I’m in good shape, financially stable (earning over 10k/month), and overall I’ve always been considered mature for my age.

Back at university, people even used to call me “dad” because I had to learn how to handle life very early on due to difficult family circumstances. I became independent young, learned responsibility young, and built a stable life for myself.

What confuses me is that despite being relatively successful — both professionally and socially — dating feels completely different now compared to when I was younger. Back then, meeting women felt natural. Today it feels like everything revolves around Tinder and dating apps, and honestly, every experience I’ve had on them has felt shallow, transactional, or disappointing.

The hardest moments are during holidays or trips when I see couples everywhere. It makes me feel incredibly alone, like maybe I’m not worthy of real attention or connection despite all the effort I put into becoming a good, reliable, successful person.

I know life doesn’t owe anyone love, but sometimes it feels difficult not to become discouraged.