u/Enough-Fisherman8536

Okay let me tell you something so I come from Goa and in goans Romanticise rain a lottt and am one of them
And I do it more and I have yearly ritual where in first monsoon rain I use to sit out with tea and old Hindi songs

So I remember we dng it like I use to lie on her lap and we use to listen to songs and just be in the car nothing else…like this is peak love I would say just looking at her face and clouds and it’s raining
So our music taste is very different but only 2 songs was like common
I had fall for you all over again
Bearish ka asar

And it was raining here now….I had tea and I was standing and having tea and remembered these moments and mannn thatttt smile on my faceee….I couldn’t get that smile out of my face….this moment for the first time I wasn’t having regret of not having h in but contentment of lived that moment ahhh felt so good

It’s been around 9-10 months since my breakup and I genuinely don’t know what stage I’m in anymore.

I accepted that we broke up long ago, but now I’m realising “breaking up” and “moving on” are two completely different things. Like accepting the breakup.....happened with time naturally, but moving on feels like an active choice I have to make every single day.

The weird part is… moving on almost feels like betraying my own feelings? Like if I fully let go, then was my love even real? Sounds stupid but idk.

And honestly I think I’m more attached to the hope now than the person herself. Hope that one day she’ll realise my value, reach out, regret things, etc. Killing that last bit of hope feels harder than the breakup itself....idk its hard for me specially these feeling are on rise coz she sent me a request from her pvt acc to mine.

and honestly I’m tired. I’m functioning normally outside....work, gym, responsibilities, talking to people....but internally it still feels like I’m stuck in some old timeline while life keeps moving ahead....it feels dead inside tbh.

And another thing:
Accepting “she’s gone” somehow feels easier than accepting “I have to move on.”....am I romantasing the pain or something....or trying to validate saying since am suffering I loved honestly.

Did anyone else feel like this after a serious relationship? Like you’re not exactly crying everyday anymore, but you’re emotionally frozen somewhere in between grief and detachment?

How did you actually move forward mentally? Not distract yourself temporarily, but genuinely detach?...telll me and guide me on this please

So yeah… me and my ex broke up like 9 months ago after being together for 2 years (ldr). It was pretty rough on me ngl....I was stuck on her for a while, while she kinda just moved on and also started new relationship (infact I feel that was also here reason for breaking up).

We haven’t talked at all since the breakup. Like she had my number, Whatsapp, everything….but never reached out....she even have blocked me on whatsapp I believe

And now suddenly out of nowhere she sends me a follow request from her private account TO MY PVT ACC?!!??...like wtfff.

Idk man it just feels weird. Like if she actually wanted to talk, she could’ve just texted me instead of doing this shittt...which idk solves what purpose.

Part of me is curious obv, but at the same time I feel like accepting it might just mess with my head again… and I’ve just started feeling better recently.

Am I overthinking this or is it kinda sus?...tell me should I accept it, ignore it, or something else?...and mainly why sending request...I feel bad than am still thinking about her and trying to find reason why she sent me request where am trying to indirectly give her importance but I feel we all are human in the end...so yeaaEx sent me a follow request after 9 months… idk what to do

So yeah… me and my ex broke up like 9 months ago after being together for 2 years (ldr). It was pretty rough on me ngl....I was stuck on her for a while, while she kinda just moved on and also started new relationship (infact I feel that was also here reason for breaking up).

We haven’t talked at all since the breakup. Like she had my number, Whatsapp, everything….but never reached out....she even have blocked me on whatsapp I believe

And now suddenly out of nowhere she sends me a follow request from her private account TO MY PVT ACC?!!??...like wtfff.

Idk man it just feels weird. Like if she actually wanted to talk, she could’ve just texted me instead of doing this shittt...which idk solves what purpose.

Part of me is curious obv, but at the same time I feel like accepting it might just mess with my head again… and I’ve just started feeling better recently.

Am I overthinking this or is it kinda sus?...tell me should I accept it, ignore it, or something else?...and mainly why sending request...I feel bad than am still thinking about her and trying to find reason why she sent me request where am trying to indirectly give her importance but I feel we all are human in the end...so yeaaEx sent me a follow request after 9 months… idk what to do