u/Emergency_Square_183

I have 5 cats they are all siblings and I had them since their birth. One of them was just born terrified and scared. She never went through anything to make her that way I promise. She freaks out when she sees me and run away and hide etc. 2 years forward, I had to separate her from her siblings for a medical reason for about 5 days. I’ve done that before to all of them and they tend to hiss at the separated cat for few hours then everything goes back to normal. Well not this time. They never accepted her back. It’s been a year since. They attack her all the time and hit her. They don’t hiss at her and don’t look like they’re scared of her. She’s the one who hisses and cries. Its like if they like the reaction they get from her. I don’t know why all of them keep doing that. They fight with each other occasionally but not this way. They target her all the time. It’s been a year and I don’t even know what to do.

شئنا أم أبينا أغلب الناس في مجتمعنا ضد الاختلاف ومع الصورة النمطية للرجل البالغ كيف يكون و المرأة البالغة كيف لازم تكون وانهم المفروض يكونون ضمن ايطار محدد و إذا طلع أحد عن الايطار لابد ينظر له بطريقة سلبية والنبذ بغض النظر عن الاختلاف حتى لو كان الاختلاف ما يمس أحد ولا يضر أحد. وغالبًا** لو كنت ما تتفق مع كلامي فأنت احدى هذه النسخ والصور النمطية ولا تخالف العرف لذا أنت تعيش أفضل حياة والمجتمع متقبلك جدًا وحياتك ماشية بأفضل حال فمستحيل تستوعب كلامي. كشخص عندي طيف توحد عانيت كثير بحياتي رغم إني بحياتي ما أذيت أحد. لمجرد انه ليش شخصيتي هادية؟ شخصية خجولة كأنك طفل؟ البالغين ما يخجلون! ليش شخصيتي غريبة أطوار؟ ليش أنا شخص انعزالي؟ خواف؟ معقد؟ الخ الخ هذه كفيلة انها تخلي الناس تنظر لي بطريقة سيئة ما يحتاج أكون شخص مؤذي. غير اللي يألف عليك كلام انك نفسية** و مختل وشايف نفسك ووقح وما تبي الناس بدون ما حتى يتعامل معي**. عمري ما صرحت بإن عندي توحد لا في المدرسة ولا في العمل لأن أعرف الصورة النمطية كيف (توحد=معاق مسكين وما يفهم) رغم اني أذكى من ناس كثير حولي** و في طفولتي كنت الأكثر تفوق الخ**. ما عندنا استيعاب ان التوحد مشابه لمثلًا السكري. فيه ناس السكر عندهم مرتفع شوي و فيه ناس تموت** لو ما أخذت إنسولين مو كلهم بنفس الدرجة. وغالبًا اللي يكون وضعه صعب** ما يكون مشخص توحد فقط، يكون توحد مع مشكلة ثانية!** لكن عندنا** ما يصرحون الأهل بالتوحد** عند أطفالهم إلا إذا كان مرحلة متقدمة واضحة. وأعتقد** ان كثير** أهل** ما يعرفون ان أطفالهم عندهم** طيف توحد أصلا بما** ان الطفل ماشي وضعه ويروح مدرسة. اذكر زمان كتبت بوست شبيه و كانت اكثر التعليقات** انه واو كتابتك ممتازة** لا ما** فيك توحد اكيد تتوهم.** ما ادري** ليش الناس تفكر التوحد إعاقة عقلية!** هل بيجي** يوم نتعايش** مع** بعض بشكل منفتح بدون أحكام مسبقة**؟ و نتعرف** على الشخص قبل نحكم عليه بناء على اختلافه؟

ليش كشخص بالغ لما تكون منطوي على نفسك وما تحب الكلام والنقاشات والسوالف تصير مصيبة؟ تصير غريب أطوار وخجول و خواف و شايف نفسك و نفسية و معقد و مريض و و و ؟ متى نخلي الناس بحالها و بكيفها طالما ما تأذي أحد؟ خصوصاً** في أماكن العمل ترا جيت اشتغل و انقلع بيتنا ما جيت أكون صداقات معكم! مو بالضرورة اني مو صديقك ولا سولفت معاك تخليني تلقائيًا عدو لك! ياخي تجاهلوني مثل ما اتجاهلكم لين الله يفرج**ها

I live in a country with a society that only accepts people who are identical copies of each other. Any slight difference is frowned upon. Autism is only associated with none verbal kids here and is seen as a disability. So as an adult being on the spectrum might even cost me my job. I always have problems at work and I’m always the quiet weird one and I’ve been bullied for it since forever either at work or school. I’ve never mentioned autism I’m just the awkward one, but I remember being called autistic as an insult several times. I’ve been just surviving life for years and now I feel like I can’t do it anymore. People don’t respect boundaries or being different. I’ve been lonely since I was a kid and never had friends or any people around. And being stuck in a place that doesn’t accept me is hell. I used to be bright as a kid and a teenager and I truly believe that I could’ve been something big if I was in a better place. I took a look at my childhood notebooks with all the ideas and “inventions” I thought about and cried because I was really smart for my age. Obviously not anymore because now as an adult with a hyper active mind and endless problems I can’t take it anymore. I hate where I’m at. I’m stuck. I’ve been trying to get out but I couldn’t. What really kills me is that I remember writing a similar post around 4-5 years ago, well, I’m still where I was. I have no money or support to be able to afford a drastic change. What’s the point of surviving life at this point? Every year is worse than the previous one.

I have insomnia and I barely sleep every other day for 4-5 hours max. The different medications doctors gave me were either 1.too light and useless. I take it and still don’t sleep. 2.good at making me fall asleep, but can’t wake up after! I sleep after taking it for 10-12 hours and can’t wake up for work after or wake up feeling dizzy like if were drugged with zero focus and 100% headache. I took it during weekends and slept for 20+ hours and still woke up with a horrible headache! This is the third doctor and fifth medication change and still nothing is helping! I just try them for a couple of weeks up to a month and stop because going to work while taking them is impossible!

When I was way younger I used to have something like obsessive episodes. I obsess over something or someone and literally live for that thing! Wake up sleep and cry about it/them 24/7. To the point of me hating myself (wanting to die) and not be able to function properly. (Note that I’ve never even stalked or harassed anyone. It was only inside my own limerence-like bubble). Thankfully the last time I went through this was about 10 years ago! I still have the other issues like depression and ptsd but not those obsessive episodes. I’m a huge MJ fan and already cried about him for years etc, but I got over it (functioning normally) and life stress made me busy. But since the moment I knew about the movie, even before I watch it, I slipped to that familiar form of obsession to the point of me trying to find any proof that time travel is real lol. It might sound ridiculous I know but I’m really suffering here. Why do I experience something I thought I overcame years ago? And why now? I am a full grown adult I can’t do this now I have a job and I already missed up several times this week because I only slept for 6-7 hours total the whole 5 working day. It’s really missing with my physical and mental health and I’m so embarrassed to talk about it.