u/Electronic-Waltz5763

I think the question of what comes after we die will haunt me for the rest of my life. I need to know and I always search for the truth, but I will never actually know until I die. The frustration is in how we've set up life here on earth. It's so fucked up. Like we could all be living happily if it wasn't set up this way. I get angry because we have such a finite amount of time on earth, yet we waste it with work/bills/stress/survival.

When you look at the life of certain celebrities, it shows you what's possible if we were all rich/famous in this matrix, and I don't just mean buying whatever you want but being able to use that money to actually help people. Using your platform to speak a message to the world, to influence people in the right way and using your fame to shift the collective consciousness (which a lot of celebs don't do because they're satanic). For example, Michael Jackson, his goal was to unite people of all races and religions from all over the world. His message was strong and it was working. At the time of his death, he had 4 billion fans (still growing now as his message lives on). His music was intended to make real change such as 'earth song', 'human nature' and many more. His music moved people and it reminded us that we're all human and we're all part of the same thing. It brought people together, stirred up strong emotions and promoted love. That's why they had to get rid of him. He also criticised the satanic music industry, so there's that too.

We need things that remind us of our humanity/togetherness and move us emotionally, such as art, film and music. They speak to the divine spark and soul within us that wants to create. A lot of us would be amazing at creating these things, but we never get a chance to because we're too busy surviving. I get so angry because we're being made to waste this time we have alive by doing things we don't want to do, distracted by working, fighting, arguing, surviving and then what? that's it? I cannot believe that's just IT. We all know what we feel when we come together with other people and experience love, that's what life is actually about. We feel it in our soul. I know there's so many evil people on earth, but it's not the majority. There are billions of normal people like us who want this world to be a happy place.

I also wonder what the hell 'life' looks like if we escape because this here is all we know. All the good emotions we have are tied to physical sensations of the body, such as taste, touch, sight and sound, even dopamine is produced by the body in the brain. I really struggle to understand what to expect if we escape? no sunlight on our skin ever again, no hugging another person, no laughter ever again. I'm not saying I want to come back here again, not at all, because the cruelty and suffering here is insane and everything points to it being designed that way. But part of why I'm scared of dying is because I don't know what comes after and I also want to save everyone, not just myself.

I adopted a rescue dog 7 days ago. Around the 4th day, I noticed I was experiencing symptoms such as sore eyes, tingly irritation in my nose and migraines. He has just spent 3 nights in the vets getting treated for some infections he has, and in that time, my symptoms cleared up. I feel awful but if i really am allergic, I don't think I can keep dog. I'd prefer him to go to a family who can actually be around him with no problems. Which is why I'm asking, how do I determine if I'm allergic to him specifically? Is there a blood test I can do? Do I need a piece of his fur? The lady at the shelter will not let me return him without a legit reason and proof.

Edit: I'm not allergic to dogs in general, I've had dogs before, so these symptoms are strange, which is why I need to do a test that checks if I'm allergic to this specific dog. Can that be done?

I have a direct way of communicating. It's not rude, it's meant to be effective and clear. The problem, for other people, is that I leave out niceties or fluffy language because I don't want it to misconstrue what I'm saying, so I just speak clearly so people understand, no funny business, no passive aggressiveness, no reading between the lines. If I have a problem I will just say it and if I like something I will also say it. I believe this is to be a good thing because you never have to guess where you stand with me or what I'm thinking. I also don't let people walk all over me which they've tried to do because I look 'innocent' and like I won't stand up for myself. But the minute I do, somehow I'm the bad guy. I have been called harsh and mean on more than one occasion by people because of this. I just think if I was a man people wouldn't be like this towards me. They'd probably appreciate it.

I adopted a rescue dog 5 days ago. On day 4, I started to get itchy eyes and experienced irritation in my nasal passages that hasn't gone away. I also noticed on day 1 that the dog licked my hand and it went red and itchy in that one spot. Yesterday he got sick and we took him to the vet and found out he has an infection called mycoplasma. I read online that while rare, it is possible for humans to contract mycoplasma from dogs, so now I'm worried that I might have contracted it? Or, that I'm allergic to the dog. The thing is, he's a shih tzu x maltese mix and I've 2 shih tzus before in my life so I thought I was fine with this breed but is it possible that I'm allergic to this specific dog?

I just adopted a dog 3 days ago, so it's still very new, but I thought I'd ask in here if his behavior is normal or not. He's a 9 month old shih tzu that was rescued off the streets. When we went to see him at the shelter, he was very playful, excited and had lots of energy! The first day we brought him home he was playing fetch, jumping up on the couch, running around the house, devouring all his food, loving snacks (fruits) and doing lots of barking at a toy car. On the second day, he was a little bit quieter. He slept most of the day, ate his food fine but was a bit less playful. Now it's the third day and he won't eat or drink anything, he's not interested in the fruits he loved on day 1. He won't play fetch, we throw the ball and he just ignores us. We try and get him active, but he just sleeps. He won't jump on the couch to be with us and when we showed him the toy car he just curled up, put his head down and went to sleep. On day 1, he was barking like crazy. This is the opposite change in behavior I would expect. I've had 2 shih tzus before this and I think his behavior is not normal. He seems depressed and lethargic. It's so bad I'm considering the vet. I have no idea what I did wrong. Has anyone else experienced this?

Last year, my boyf got a new job in a new country. I was unemployed at the time, so I agreed to go because I thought I had nothing to lose. I thought, I'll just see if I like it....but the trouble is, I have no idea how I feel about it due to alexithymia, even after a year of living here. It's so hard to know. It's not like I hate it, but I don't love it either? Or maybe I do and I don't even know. When I try and reach for emotions, they're just not there. We're wondering whether to stay or move elsewhere and I have no idea if I like it here. I know it sounds crazy but there's no feelings (if there is, I can't feel them). I have to look at things logistically, like making a pros and cons list instead of relying on how I feel. This has also really hindered my career. I have no idea which direction to go and I've spent the last year dabbling in lots of completely different courses and networking events, not really knowing if I even like any of these career paths or if I'm interested in them. I have no idea what I like, what my strengths/weakness are, which is exactly what's gotten me into some really unsuitable career paths. Not knowing where to live, what career to do or even what to wear most days is exhausting.