Okay maybe i’m a total wuss but the monk chanting scene is like pants-shittingly scary to me, I’ve rewatched this show so much but it gets me every time. Maybe it’s because of how different of an atmosphere this episode sets up compared to the rest of the series, but yeah. Yeesh.
If you have any thoughts, or if this scene is a cool literary device for parallels/foreshadowing in the series, I’d be interested to hear!
Yeahh so I 21F finally caved and ordered my first toy. If my evil ass roommates open the package my life’s probably over, but hey maybe the amazon warehouse workers’ll have mercy and put it at the bottom of my order’s box since I got other things.
I’m excited because it’s like liberating or something but I also feel kinda guilty? I have a gf of a couple months (we were talking for a long time before being official) but we’re nowhere near anything sex related yet, we’re both pretty inexperienced (I’m a total virgin and I think she’s got like a couple makeout sessions on me lol).
Sooo we’ve been taking things like record setting-ly slow which I’m more than fine with because I’ve got some serious avoidance and vulnerability/intimacy issues I’ve been working through my whole life. That’s queer guilt for ya. It works for us, though. We’re both incredibly busy and independent. Slow is good.
Anyway, I feel shitty because I decided to order this when I’m in the middle of a relationship. This is something I’m nowhere near talking to her about yet, honestly I might freak and throw this out by the end of next week, who knows. But I’m pretty new to all this relationship stuff and I want to know if it’s weird how secretive i’m being about this. I just couldn’t imagine telling anyone (which is kind of the main reason i’m on here at all, so i’m saying it to somebody), but it’s something I’ve wanted to do for myself for a whole multitude of reasons — which are honestly tmi and a whole other topic — but I digress.
Am I keeping things I shouldn’t from my gf? Is this as far as being unfaithful? I don’t really believe that but I feel weirder about this the more I think about it. I think what’s getting to me is that this isn’t something I pulled the trigger on when I was single, but while I’m actively committed.