u/Eclypisa

Where to even start... I'm not quite sure what's wrong with me. I've always been a procrastinator since childhood, but I also have a strong sense of responsibility, and it just leads to so many issues.

1. My sleep schedule is horrible. I find myself always sleeping late since I only gain the energy and momentum to actually start a task well into the night, either from the pressure of an approaching due date or the result of hyping myself up to do the task hours prior.
2. My capacity for what I'm able to take on is too low. I can only manage to do the homework I have, and anything else is basically out of the question, especially studying. At most, I cram the night before by watching videos, somehow having faith that I'll be okay. This isn't exclusive to quizzes or tests, but even big exams. I just can't get myself to study, no matter how much I want to.
3. I can barely keep a routine. The only consistent routine task I have is showering daily as soon as I get home, which took almost a year of effort to achieve. Still, I can only motivate myself enough to shower by constantly having some sort of stimulation, whether it be music or social media. This applies to other simple tasks as well, such as getting up in the morning.

Am I just too lazy and not have enough discipline to break free from my procrastination and horrible time management? These habits have been affecting me daily, and I'm having trouble finding a solution since I don't even know what this could be. Any insight would be appreciated!

I'm currently writing my paper which is now at 1000 words--I'm presenting on tues, so I'm trying to get it done in order to make my slides tomorrow

if you're in a similar situation, know that you're not alone... we got this...

I normally sleep at 2-3 am, and somehow force myself to wake up at 7 am because I have to get to class by 8 am, but I had the day off today, so I ended up sleeping in until 1 p.m.

I had planned to be productive and finally make progress on my to-do list, but I ended up getting absolutely nothing done. I'm so frustrated at myself for how I decided to use my time for the day, and find myself wishing I could somehow restart the day every time this happens.

When I wake up late, I feel like the functioning time I have for the day gets cut short... it just completely throws me off, and it's like I have no time to really do anything.

I only manage to wake up early when I have some sort of important obligation, and I find that I'm more productive, but then just feel horribly tired the whole day.

I don't know if this is related to DSPD, or if I'm just blaming my lack of productivity on my sleep schedule, so I was wondering if this was relatable.